Words

This is a poem I wrote out of regret and sadness today. I didn't want to write it... But I did. I had to. Today marks a year of that one special day I don't think I can ever forget.

Words

By: Aimee Robinson

 

Words.

 

sweet words,

charming words,

butterfly-filling-stomach words.

 

Meaningless words.

Fading, drifting

away into the past.

 

She needs them.

He regrets them.

 

A year ago they meant the world

to the two hopeless lovers.

Happiness and joy

filled their souls

as they joined together

as one

after all the pain they endured

the previous months.

 

Love, laughter, smiles, and pure excitement.

A perfect moment.

 

…then a week passes.

He tells her he must leave

and that

he doesn’t care for her anymore.

“My feelings have died away,” he says

with that crisp, clean voice of his

that she used to love hearing on the phone.

 

And she breaks apart.

 

why? Why? WHY?

 

Questions flood her mind.

Tears pour down her face.

 

He was all she ever wanted,

and he walks away just like that.

His eyes like a clear sky,

nothing to them.

No emotions.

Nothing.

 

Words…

Simple white words

left untouched.

It scars her deeper

each time she reads them.

Because she knows they will never

revive themselves again.

The time has passed.

 

So a year goes by.

 

She tries to comfort her pain

with other boys.

There are sparks for awhile,

then they just fade away into the distance.

She still yearns for him,

but she won’t allow herself to believe it.

 

She can’t.

 

Yet…

The thirst is unbearable.

His face appears everywhere she goes,

and that perfect smile is unforgettable.

 

Thoughts swarm her head.

Is he hiding something?

Is it possible…

 

no. No. NO.

 

This is reality.

Not dreams and imagination.

He could never love me again.

 

So she walks through life

Everyday

concealing her true feelings,

revealing them to no one.

Going through the motions

to make herself appear

like it is really her.

Laughing, joking around and smiling.

She kisses her boyfriend,

holds his hand,

and whispers “I love you” in his ear.

 

But everything is fake.

A lie.

She only wants the day to come

where maybe everything

would make sense again.

 

He would surprise her one day at her front door,

and forgive.

Apologize for everything

and give her

that smile no one else could ever match.

Tell her she means the world to him,

and begin a brand new love that

will never end.

Reviews

[The Iron Horseman]

The epitome of angst! This is very well expressed and emotive, thoughtful and imaginatively presented. But don't forget to enjoy living while you wait for something that may never happen - please!