Illusion

Illusion

A Chapter by Dr. YumnaKay

What's it like living with an illusion? 

When you deeply love a person and suddenly you're left to live without them, it feels as if you're no longer alive... as if you're floating... yes, you can see what is happening around the world but you can't feel it... as if you've gone numb... immune even... 

It's not as if a part of you has gone away with that person...it's like a part of that person is with you... constantly - reminding you that they're there... but of course they aren't... it's an illusion. 

You see them everywhere... I know I do... In every person.. 
I try to see your resemblance... even compare what you would have done, had you been here... 

And you go mad... isolated from the world... you can never find them in anyone... 'cause it's an illusion you created... 

There is no escape. You feel trapped inside your own body.

And you know --- that at this time of life, if you screamed, even you wouldn't hear your voice...



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It is deadly powerful Yumna. Screaming and not even hearing one's own voice is a numbness of epic proportions.
I can see the POV - we hold onto the memory of someone so hard that it seems as if they are with us because we reinforce the memory by revisiting again and again - clinically speaking, strengthening the various snyapses and neurons and pathways that contain the memories. I guess that's why time is said to soften the pain; actually it could be physiological, A loved one departs, the memories are visited less, the neurons and pathways deplete and the pain association reduces.
To some it is all too real and to some it is all an illusion.
A very deep return for you to the WC.
Are you now Dr. YumnaKay?

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1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Tony Jordan

9 Months Ago

So if I rig a robot arm to my laptop with a tray of dental instruments and a drill with some burrs y.. read more
Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

Lol I said consultant😛
Tony Jordan

9 Months Ago

Oooh already getting to be a tiny bossy boots - God help us all !!
;p



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Yeah. When a loved one leaves, making you like that. Making you heart-less. And Him, carrying Two hearts. One yours, one his. :)

Posted 2 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Dr. YumnaKay

2 Months Ago

Nicely worded. Thank you for reading and reviewing (:
NerdyBeauty

2 Months Ago

Thanks! And of course, you're welcome. :)
Oh no not another sappy moment

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Posted 7 Months Ago


Dr. YumnaKay

7 Months Ago

Hey this isn't sappy lol
A Ghost or form of someone you loved that has left, willingly or unwillingly. Seeing a familiar face in a crowd for a mere heartbeat or two of time and losing it just as suddenly.

It can be an overwhelming experience of feelings that flood you, nearly drowning you. But sometimes it can leave you feeling not much of anything.

It's an honestly beautiful expression of the bleakness that can invade Love itself, a passionate love that can make you mad if you allow it.

Good work, Kay! The emotions displayed here are brutally honest and extremely effective.

Tis better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all is oftentimes not quite true.

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Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lovecraft

9 Months Ago

No problem. Never loving at all would be so much easier and simpler.
Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

Yeah but life isn't 😑
Lovecraft

9 Months Ago

Unfortunately so.
A very powerful write. You definitely feel the strong emotions in this piece. Nicely written

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Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

Hey, thank you so much! I'm glad you could feel the emotions here! Truly appreciate it ☺
Kesha

9 Months Ago

You are very welcome! :)
This piece is so powerful and good Yumna! Good job on this one! You really captured all the emotions. And I feel exactly the same way..

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Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

I think most of us do feel like this at some time of life.. How to get out of feeling like this, is .. read more
This is exactly what it is like

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Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

I'm glad you can relate! Thank you for checking up on this one ☺
It is deadly powerful Yumna. Screaming and not even hearing one's own voice is a numbness of epic proportions.
I can see the POV - we hold onto the memory of someone so hard that it seems as if they are with us because we reinforce the memory by revisiting again and again - clinically speaking, strengthening the various snyapses and neurons and pathways that contain the memories. I guess that's why time is said to soften the pain; actually it could be physiological, A loved one departs, the memories are visited less, the neurons and pathways deplete and the pain association reduces.
To some it is all too real and to some it is all an illusion.
A very deep return for you to the WC.
Are you now Dr. YumnaKay?

This review was written for a previous version of this writing

Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Tony Jordan

9 Months Ago

So if I rig a robot arm to my laptop with a tray of dental instruments and a drill with some burrs y.. read more
Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

Lol I said consultant😛
Tony Jordan

9 Months Ago

Oooh already getting to be a tiny bossy boots - God help us all !!
;p

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