Harsh Reality

Harsh Reality

A Chapter by Dr. YumnaKay

How hard it is when you don't want to forget a person yet you don't want to remember them either.. 

Depending too much on someone takes you nowhere..only to a hellhole from where you can never emerge carefree and happy.. 

I realized this after too many hard lessons but I'll be strong now.. I won't depend on you..you don't matter to me the way you did before.. And I hate myself for letting you in too much.. But I love you too much to let you go.. Because I'm selfish to the core.. 

One thing I have learned though.. I don't expect anything from you now.. Whether you're here or not, I realize you have your reasons but still it's hard for me to accept this. 

The one thing that pains me the most is that you're the person I loved selflessly and this love has cost me too much.. I don't believe in love anymore..it's basically just needs and desires you want from someone.. And I hate myself for needing you by my side.. 

Some wishes are better off being wishes and we're fools to even think that anyone in this world loves us.. Because no one does.. It's just you and you alone in this world, trudging along until you die.. 

I hated being emotional.. And now it seems I'm everything emotional and I hate myself for that too.. I don't know what I've done to have earned this.. It feels restless as hell and I've got no one to share, no one to tell how I feel..not even you.. But you wouldn't know this.. You don't know how it feels.. 

I'm trying to be the same me I was before I met you.. Maybe it will help me survive.. I'm trying to forget you because you have too..



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I think the harshest epiphany is that nothing is for free after all.
The deeper the experience the more we will (eventually) pay.
Life be's like "Want happiness...pay me!" - "Want love...what it didn't work out! F**k you, pay me!" - "Want to feel so you can write. PAY ME!"

I wonder if this is why dentist s all seem very eager to drill down that little bit more than the anaesthetic was designed to numb?

Great piece of writing - one can literally feel the molasses clinging to the shoes as we try to extricate ourselves from feeling this.
:)

Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Tony Jordan

9 Months Ago

I think kids are coming round to the fact that a nice smile is something to aspire to. I think they .. read more
Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

Hahah I know. I've come to regard you as never being serious you know 😂 which is kinda good for a.. read more
Tony Jordan

9 Months Ago

haha - you are too kind. Thank you. I appreciate you too Dr.



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dilemma.
the worst of feeling

Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

I agree! Thank you for adding your thoughts here :)
YumnaKay, There is some strong emotion in this piece. If you're writing what you know then you are going through some tough times and I thank you for sharing a piece of it with us. If not, then you've done a masterful job replicating the sensations of someone who is going through a tough time.

The two first paragaphs seem to belabor a point. They're both good independently but together they seem incongruous. Try picking just one or the other, or move one later in the piece.

I love the dichotomy of first appearing to overcome the struggle and the admitting to being consumed by it. Maybe think about replicating that cadence more purposefully throughout the piece. You have used that technique to great effect in this piece and I found myself wanting more.

Last phrase: "because you have too." Was that meant to be "because I have to"? If that's the case then one idea might be to explain why... Why do you have to? What happens if you don't? What is compelling you, or forcing you, or making you feel trapped by that choice?

Again, well done and thank you for sharing with us.


Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

Jon, Thank you for your take on this piece. I appreciate it very much..

I rarely writ.. read more
Jon G.

9 Months Ago

"have too." That was my fault for misreading. That is a powerful line when I read it properly. :) An.. read more
Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

I'm glad I was able to clear your confusion here! Always feels good to read people's perspectives .. read more
PLS REVIEW MY STORY ALSO
WHO WAS THAT MAN?

Posted 9 Months Ago


VERY GOOD THESE ARE HARSH BUT REALITY
IT IS VERY TRUE

Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

Thank you! I'm glad you like it ☺
Sometimes wishes are best left to be wishes. Like a moth to a flame, we long for that light, yet it burns us so badly. Will we ever learn? Maybe one day is what keeps us all going, so we keep playing, hoping this time is our time, again.
We all have those we need to forget, yet linger.We can hope one day they find a cure for love, which will no doubt be available in the app store :)

Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

Interesting thought! If only it was as easy as finding it in the appstore we would be the happiest s.. read more
Lorry.

9 Months Ago

you're welcome. :)
I think the harshest epiphany is that nothing is for free after all.
The deeper the experience the more we will (eventually) pay.
Life be's like "Want happiness...pay me!" - "Want love...what it didn't work out! F**k you, pay me!" - "Want to feel so you can write. PAY ME!"

I wonder if this is why dentist s all seem very eager to drill down that little bit more than the anaesthetic was designed to numb?

Great piece of writing - one can literally feel the molasses clinging to the shoes as we try to extricate ourselves from feeling this.
:)

Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Tony Jordan

9 Months Ago

I think kids are coming round to the fact that a nice smile is something to aspire to. I think they .. read more
Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

Hahah I know. I've come to regard you as never being serious you know 😂 which is kinda good for a.. read more
Tony Jordan

9 Months Ago

haha - you are too kind. Thank you. I appreciate you too Dr.
An honest and beautiful write.

"Its just you and you alone in this world, trudging along until you die.."

Embracing this thought, I believe is the greatest step to becoming whole. However, chances for struggle are still there. Journey back to the source of Love is a very tough one.

Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Dr. YumnaKay

9 Months Ago

It takes too long for that to finally sink in..
Thank you for your thoughts here and for liki.. read more
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