Polaroid

a scattering

Everything is polaroid scattered

along a nonsensical timeline that is my living room.

My bones have rearranged, so I know that you were here.

.47 cents

and your black hole socks

along with 2 equally half empty

vodka mindsuck concoctions.

 

I ache this stretching kind of ache.

Half chewed bubble gum thoughts, stringing to everything,

salvaging nothing.

And this smokecitrusburn is
the aftertaste fisting my insides.

idiot idiot I.diot.

Where did I go

when I slipped off into nothingness.

Clearly, I’m the one who is scattered here. 

I hope I didn’t cry.

Or talk without listening,

which I’m sure that I did.

I don’t think you were mad and

of course I know

what we know.

 

It was all so perfect and fucked up.

A confliction of things.

Perfection through procrastination, isolation, stagnation

or Fate.

I knew that I would do this to you,

but I did not know that you would let me.

 

I brought you to my bed,

and I remember your skin,

the way it felt

as my whole body passed through you

trying to let you know that I am a real girl.

 

Technology had failed us.

And the silences were soft and slowed,

carefully reducing 2 to the least common layer,

blown apart,

safety off,

because we knew that was okay to do.

 

Okay OK okokok,

You’re home safe.

120 miles per hour

Safe.

And this

is awful,

but you’re OK.

 

I’m okay too. 

And I hope that I’m different, in a better kind of way.

Because for you, i…

well,

because at least we were alive.

Reviews

[Playing with Demons]

This is a fantastic poem, it flows well and your descriptions are purely amazing! It's beautiful in the most broken down and real possible form, thank you for sharing.
Cheerio!
100/100

[ZeeArsonist]

I appreciate your reading and encouragement! I am sorry for delay in my thanks, but I am truly elated to know that this has reached. Thank you again!

[Sam Ryann]

This was quite an excellent read, I really enjoyed it. You're very talented, I hope to read more from you. Thanks for sharing!

100/100

[A. Amos]

I truly enjoyed your poetic story and ending you nailed it my friend

[ZeeArsonist]

Thank you so much! I appreciate the read and feedback. It had been a while since I felt so compelled to write something new. This helped me see, its good to get out of my head and just live. From inside out and back again.

[A. Amos]

Keep writing my friend and you're most welcome