Rock Bottom Regret : Future Wish Fulfilment

the fall before the wish fulfillment that befell

Inside Im weeping, outside im drinking

As I keep thinking, my thoughts keep blinking,

Away

My every thought are shades of gray

Inside Im choking, outside Im hoping

As I keep swilling, I keep soaking, in

A sea of Pain

Due to the worst decision that I made

Looking long at the picture

It opens up long closed sutures

Hoping for a release

Imagining an impossible future

A bargain to the sky I make...

I keep on speaking, to the source of my faith

I keep on trudging with fantasies,

That I make

Conflicting parallels that I conflate

I keep on sinking, prolonged binging

As I keep cringing, I keep singing

A song of death

The only hope that I have left

Looking long at my situation

Only salvation, death or separation

If only thoughts, transferred to manifestation

It could be my lifes elation

A bargain to the sky I made...