The Last Letter

I sit down at the table,

Writing my last letter.

Blinking back tears of sadness,

But I know,

I have to let go.

I'm sorry dad, for going so early.

You tried, don't ever doubt yourself.

It's nothing to do with you,

Maybe I was just...

Destined.

You were the best father I could have,

And although I was only with you,

For a few months,

You were always,

My number one supporter.

When things got rough,

For both you and me,

You never stopped helping me

Find my way through the hardships.

You held my hand, through it all.

So please don't be angry at yourself,

And no, please don't cry for me.

It was my choice, my weakness

That led me down this road.

It wasn't you.

You know my history, you know my past.

You know everything I ever did

To harm myself.

Yet you still stayed there with me,

When everyone left.

But you were all I ever needed,

And this may sound counterintuitive,

But it's true.

You were all I ever wanted and needed,

Just someone to help me.

And you did your job perfectly,

You played the role of a complete family,

Although we were only a family of two.

So don't ever doubt yourself.

You did your job perfectly.

But beyond all of this praise,

I know you still have questions.

Questions that will go unanswered,

For I am not here anymore.

This is all I can say.

I love you with my entire heart,

And that I cannot, and will not, deny.

And although I will not be here to say it

To you again and again,

My heart is with you.

So now if you find me,

I only have one thing left

To ask you.

Please, please, please, when you find me,

Will you hold my hand again? 

Reviews

[Tasfia Islam]

Oh now I hate you, how dare you make me cry? Why are your words so powerful? It simply touched my heart. I don't know if your poem deals with your life or not, I don't know if you are actually leaving ur dad or not but wanna say, if u r, don't. Cuz I dont think without me, anyone else knows how much it hurts to live without a father, no matter what happens, no matter what falls on, don't ever do the mistake of leaving a Dad. Cuz Dad means the world, Dad means everything...
Anyways, awesome write...

[1Disawsum]

aaw don't hate me! :'( haha thanks so much! It does deal with my problems in life, but no, I'm not planning on leaving my dad any time soon!!! Thankyou so much though

[1Disawsum]

LOVE YOU! Love me back too, maybe? ;) haha

[Tasfia Islam]

Haha,,, Love you too :* And you are welcome.. :)

[Moonlight]

Amazing work. You really made mw cry on this one.... it hurts more when one can relate to someone's writing.I really loved this... :)

[1Disawsum]

aaw thanks! Don't ever go down that road. You've probably heard lectures on this etc. but they're all true. You have supporters, and although they might not show their faces to you right now, they will, trust me. Don't make them regret not showing you who they are, but when they do in the end, you'll forever be grateful, for they are the ones who care for you the most.

Thankyou so much!!!

[Moonlight]

Thank you so much! But don't worry... I can't go down that rode even I wanted to... cuz more than sufering in silence am the type to rebel and fight against it. I mean I would rather show my anger than my tears to those who harm me... :)

[1Disawsum]

That's great, an amazing personality you have! I wish I was the same as you, but... I'm born differently. I look up to you xxx