My Addiction

Pills And Pills

they numb the weight

but in the night my stomach starts to ache

the feeling of not feeling 

what a lovely state

I've seen what they've done to my father

brought him to the floor

in his eyes tears

but still begging for more

My heart remembers

what my mind forgets

you see, I remember your love

but I don't believe in it

Dull moments

of whatever my eyes capture

a wandering junkie pleading 

for whatever comes after

There is happiness in my world

or at least the world I choose to live in

there's smiles and laughter

and joy given

I just need Some color added

to all the black and white shapes

and music surrounding me

to ignore all my mistakes

I don't need your sympathy

I love who i'm becoming

allow me to enjoy the sound of the bells

and birds humming