Too loud, too cold, too much

My fingers tap constantly against my desk as I stare at the sheet of paper in front of me. A single sheet, front and back. 10 questions on each side. The paper is too bright and there is too much. I know that I know these answers. I have prooven that on the homework given to us the previous night. But now that it is time to put the answers into practice, now that it actually matters, I can't think. My thoughts are spiraling and I keep second guessing myself. I want to quit. I want to give up. I want to cry. But I can't. Write an answer, scribble it out, repeat. I put my head on my desk (too cold) and I try to breathe (too hard). I feel frustrated and upset and everything is too loud. My fingers twitch to grab the noise cancelling headphones from my backpack, bet last time i did, my teacher told me to put them away because "I shouldn't listen to music in her classroom." I can't concentrate and my head is pounding, my eyes are burning, my throat is closing, and I can't breathe. I just can't. I get up. I leave. I can't be in that classroom when feeling like this. I'm gone for 15 minutes and return. I'm back and I'm calm and things aren't so loud. I finish the last question of the test, turn it in, and put my head back on my desk (only this time it isn't so cold).

Author's Note

I had to take my ACTC test this hour and I just finished it. I probably didn't do so well on it but at least it's finished :)

Thanks for reading <3