I m p e r f e c t i o n

We are all on that infinite path of self-discovery.

Blank sheet of paper before me

Ink dripping from my feather pen

Clock behind me ticks incessantly

Aridity has stricken me again.

 

Why me, of all people, of all poets

To feel such mediocrity is chagrin

How can I, the way that I am now,

Know not where I am to begin?

 

I was brought up to be perfect

Like the legendary amaranth flower

Dignified, sturdy, and beautiful

Misleading with my lie of power.

 

Like that flower, I had a grave flaw

One that overcame me, a dark day

When I was lost and cold and alone

And no one knew that I wasn’t okay.

 

Until tears could be held no longer

And I poured out my aching soul

Crying until nothing was left in me

With nothing to fill the gaping hole.

 

But I wrote new words, a poem, a story

In which a girl came to know herself

In the smiles and arms of her friends

Who found her heart upon a high shelf.

 

She learned to talk instead of just listen

To love and always hold out her hand

To dream instead of just wish for nothing

To kneel when it was too much to stand.

 

I found myself in that girl’s brown eyes

The me that I always longed to be

Breathing in the air of my found fantasy

Happy, complete, and utterly free.

 

Now tell me, anybody, how can this be

That I, after all this time, am still here

Back where I was before, broken inside

Ignorant to everything I hold so dear.

 

It seems to me that I cannot change

Who I really am, deep within my core

So I will write another girl’s story

…Maybe then I won’t feel it anymore.

Author's Note

Long time no write! Here is my most recent poem. Let me know what you think. :-)

Reviews

[Poetic Beauty]

We all have overloads of emotions from time to time and writing is a great way to get those emotions out constructively with beauty that remains in its wake. This is great example of pouring out and overload of swarming emotions that threaten to weight you down.

[ravenjess]

wow girl. this is amazing. very emotional the emotions in this poem are real. shivers! great job!!!

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

The changing sense of motion within the wording lends to the spirit of the piece, well done, good read.

[Annie]

*poem

[Annie]

I love this!! :) Beautiful story, nice touch with adding the rhyme. Brilliant poem, I especially love the last verse.
Great write, 100%!

[Me]

wonderfully crafted

[Thea]

Aw...That was totally wonderful! It somewhat touched my heart...I enjoyed reading this!
:)))

[Bridget Murphy]

I almost cried! It was so beautiful!!! Thank you for telling me about this poem!!!

[bie]

Jaw dropping! This is a really good piece. I cannot even come to describe the relevance of this amazing poem. It perfectly portrays literature and what it means to many including me. It's bittersweet, really. Thank you for sharing!

[Coyote Poetry]

We will change many times in a life. I have change my life completely 4 times. I didn't like who I was. With age and knowledge hard to stay clean and innocence. I like the story and the description in this poem. Rebirth can lead to a better place too. Thank you for sharing the excellent poem.
Coyote