Anorexia Dream

Anorexia Dream

I hate my thighs

I loathe my muffin tops

They are so disgusting

My belly is not flat 

My upper arms are a bit flabby 

I don’t like looking like that

I wish for Victoria Beckham’s 23-inch waist

My natural curves are driving me crazy

My obsession I feed

As I diet, I turn into a nasty b***h

My rib cage bones pop out of my dress

I am nearly there

How many calories do celebrities eat?

Oh yeah 600 per day maximum

To this allowance I must stick 

If I fail

I’ll starve 

I’ll be sick

In size zero I want to dress my bones

I take inspirations from sick-minded role models

I weigh myself twenty-five times a day

I am living anorexia dream

With pride I hold up my trophy

My saggy breasts and lollipop head are the only downfalls

Oh well, you cannot have it all.

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

this is fantastic...reminds me of another poem "barbie doll"

when someone tries to look like everyone thinks he or she should...that can rip the person apart...

trying everything to please...but there are always downfalls...and in the end, we really just have to be okay with ourselves as we are...because that is exactly who we are...not what media shows as the ideal...we are flawed, and beautiful in our flaws.

your imagery in this just blew me away, Ambra...
jacob

[Ambra Celeste]

Barbie doll? Who wrote that? I would like to read it. Thanks for your comment Jacob. Much appreciated.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

Marge Piercy

[MsJewel]

There is such an important message here! There are so many teenage girls that need to read your words. What we see in the magazines or on the big screen is not real life. You don't have to be stick skinny to be beautiful and yet these "role models" teach us that we cannot have curves - that a size 6 is fat. A good friend of mine is a "plus size model" and she wears a size 8!!!! This is wrong...

Your poem is an important one. Thank you for sharing.
:) Julie

[Ambra Celeste]

When you said that your friend is a plus size model I really did not except her to be size 8. I was actually thinking to send my poem to one of those magazines.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

I hope you are just writing this to show how the media effects the esteem of many women… Be proud of your curves, I always say bones are for dogs and skeletones are not sexy. I myself love a real woman with dangerous curves/.

[Ambra Celeste]

Wow dangerous curves! Everything I write is based on personal life experiences. People who have anorexia really see bones as beautiful. A state of mind difficult to comprehend. Only when you recover you truly realise that skeleton looks is not beautiful.

[The Rock And Roll Cowboy(REBEL WITH A CAUSE)]

Well I glad that you realize that… I blame the media for all those girls out there starving themselves… I want to go back to the days when women like Marilyn Monroe was considered a sexy symbol.

[Ambra Celeste]

It was such a simpler time!!!!!