The Darkness within

For anyone who has had something destroy them from the inside out

The Darkness within

 

This feeling, this sickly, ominous feeling creeps its way in and out of my consciousness

It consumes my every waking thought

A huge dark cloud, a secret long in the keeping

Its existence has fouled, been riddled with tears…

Fueled by the desire to simply be, the face of normality

 

Societal pressure blackens that which lies within

   BUT, the barrier begins to fray, weakening, becoming transparent

 The darkness begins to lift and with it the tiniest sliver of light floods in

A small glimmer, a single flame,

So easily starved….

 The blackness returns, smothering all in its path

 Will the darkness ever relinquish its absolute hold?  

 

I fear that is all but a dream, whisp-like and ghostly in nature

The figure teasing, mocking me as it dances in the light

 That is my life!

 I am meant to live it….

But I remain hidden, cowering in the darkness

 Here the air is stale and thick but all too familiar

 

 Have I become complacent?

 Is this the existence which I have chosen for myself? 

Is it really darkness?

Or is that simply what afflicted society perceives it to be?

Would I care if it broke?

If some prying eyes were to glean the truth, the thing I have for so long kept secret

Would I worry what damage the darkness within could reap?

Or at the very least does it even matter?

 

Will I lie forlorn and in despair? Or rather rise triumphant upon the currents stirred

Up by the simple action of release

Three words, three simple, single syllable words

A singular state of being, of self that begins to swell

Demanding release!

What would change though?

 

Life is cruel, true happiness but a figment of the imagination

Fleeting and momentary in its existence

The sense of belonging that accompanies acceptance a mere specter of reality

The masked faces peer back,

Mouths crooked

As they laugh triumphantly

 

 

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you make reference to three words.. but you don't give the words you refer to.. up to that moment I was with you every step of the way..