I love you (extended)

The extended version of my poem, I love you

I hope you know how I feel about you
I hope you know all the goodness and beauty I see in you
I pray you notice how I light up when I'm near you
I hope you know how turned on I get when I hear you
I hope you know I beat myself up when I fail you
I hope you know I'm on my own head before you
I hope you know I do my best to support you
Just sometimes I feel like I don't know you
And I'm young, sometimes I'm not going to know what to do
I feel you expect more of me than I'm able to do
I'm only human, like you
I make mistakes just like you do
I've had pressure on me to be perfect way before you
I could try but you don't know what that kind of thing will do
I can do everything perfect and never express myself
I can pretend to be someone else
It's what I used to do
Before I met you
I felt I could be me with you
Don't tell me now it wasn't true
Because I felt you liked me for me
Not just because I was something new
I told you not many last in my life
You said they don't in yours too
So where will we be when the new car smell wears off
And still the only person I'm f*****g with is you?
I'm not expecting roses and happy feelings all the time
But it'd be sad if we let a thing this sweet, die
And don't judge me
It's only because I love you that I cry
It's only because I love you that I try
But that's just me
I'm not all there but I'm not crazy
I'm sensitive, but I don't necessarily think you're mean
I've just never told you that little things can hurt my feelings
But I'm a Leo
It hurts my pride to admit I'm hurt
Lick my wounds in private & silence, I prefer
I don't want to talk about it
"What's wrong with her?"
"She's strange."
I would concur
I'm different, but it don't make me any worse
I'm beautiful, but beauty is just a curse
Sex is just a distraction
Anger is just a reaction
Sadness don't make s**t happen
Love don't pay bills
Prayer can't make you feel
Tears don't do much
Time is the only thing that heals
I've learned to recognize the emotions that kill
I've learned not to believe all that I've seen
I've learned there's a fine line between jaded and naïve
I've learned the only person who needs me is me
I've learned some things only a blind man could see
That's deeper than you think
It's easier to jump than to sink
But it's better for your soul to save a soul
It's hard being a half when you are my whole
Jesus Christ was the truth
But his words were misconstrued
Not to be cruel
Not many see what I do
But I hope you do
Because I enjoy being there with you
Because inside, I hope you crave me like I'm craving you
I hope ten years from now that this s**t still feels new
I hope you never stop believing me when I say, "I love you."