Please Be Real

Please Be Real

A Poem by AJadeLion

Thoughts before prom last year. I'm trying writing again, we'll see how this goes.

Prom. Tonight.
Please be real
I am almost grown
Yet I feel like a child
Not because
I never had sex
Or did drugs
Or even learned to drive
Just more and more of the time
I feel hollow
Safe and Protected
But empty
No substance to prove years
For its all been corroded away
By an all encompassing depression
Trying to turn me
Into a cold shell of what
Could be
Used to be
So I try to compensate
Using things
Material things
Shallowly anchoring myself
To this reality
Mimicking living  
Using vanity
Pretty Makeup
Glitzy Dresses
High heels in a ballroom
So I can simulate-
No, so I can really feel again
I am almost grown
Please be real

© 2016 AJadeLion

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God I haven't written poetry in ages, I love reviews and help improving

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Added on February 22, 2016
Last Updated on March 3, 2016
Tags: depression, prom




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