Why: An answer

Pain can define you.
That one instant can change how people see you forever.
You're no longer that little girl who saw her whole future ahead of her.
You're the girl who sees nothing but pain.
Whose fate is no longer defined and it scares you.

Everyone looks at you with sorrow eyes.
Things that seemed to be important slowly lose meaning.
You don't realize it, but day be day your dying.
You're losing yourself, slipping into nonexistence.
You know you have to get out before it kills you,
But the pain is so blissful.
You have become numb to it all.

So now how they see you, doesn't really matter.
You're starting to believe them.
The fight might not actually be worth fighting anymore.