Dear Mother,...

Dear Mother,

Thank you for the abuse

You made me the person I am today

 

 

You told me I could never make it in any career I tried

I am a failure

 

You never encouraged my natural talents

I can't do anything

 

Your emotions always run hot, then cold

I'm so confused

 

You said you wished you never had children

I wish you hadn't

 

You ignore me at every opportunity

I am invisible

 

You do your best to beat me down

I never stand up for myself

 

I can never seem to please you

I try to please everyone

 

You helped my step-father sexually abuse me

I distrust men

 

You shattered any trust I had in you

I feel betrayed

 

You tried to live vicariously through me

I didn't fit your mold

 

You demand that I spend time with you, then change your mind

I don't understand

 

You are only concerned with how I look

I'm not pretty or skinny enough

 

You focus on money and possessions

I am poor and own little

 

You made it impossible for me to have a healthy relationship

I am broken

 

You made me distrustful of everyone

I can't form attachments

 

You make me fit all of this mess into a "normal" facade

I have so much anger

 

No Love

No Confidence

No Trust

 

Only Disconnection

Only Confusion

Only Hatred

 

 

Dear Mother,

Thank you for the abuse

You made me the person I am today

 

 

Author's Note

I have needed to get this off my chest for years and I feel a bit better now. Writing is very therapeutic. If anyone ever wonders why my some of my writing is so horrible or bazaar, this should give you a clue. I'm a screwed up individual.

Reviews

[Vanessa Rico]

Oh my hun! This made me cry for you...I cant believe what a screwed up, horrible person your mother was...I dont mean to offend you, but it is abominable to think that your mother did this to you...I am so sorry that you had to go through this...but now you are a strong woman that I am so glad to know! Much love to you hun!

[bey]

this gave me chills, then tears spread my eyes.

its a powerful piece of poetry, but it is also very haunting. the way you ended it drives a dagger straight through the heart. i pray writing continues to be cathartic and brings you healing.

you are a scarred individual. not screwed up.


-bey