Private Conversations

Me, myself and I... Don’t we all?

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MYSELF: Yes you can!

ME: Of course I can't, you know I don't

MYSELF: Then what?

ME: Then shut up

MYSELF: But oh, you're still thinking about this..!

ME: No I'm not... Yes I am. So what?

MYSELF: So do. Think about it

ME: And then what?

MYSELF: Let it consume you

ME: I am. I am letting it

MYSELF: And?

ME: It drives me nuts! I just can't stop thinking about it. My mind is always there as if hypnotized. And I don't

want it to stop. It's just so beautiful! It was so wonderful. All of it. Before, after, during. Every second of it. It was all so...

MYSELF: Yes?

ME: I want more. Sucks that I'm greedy

MYSELF: You're not greedy

ME: Then what?

MYSELF: You're in love!

ME: Shouldn't

MYSELF: Well who're you gonna blame?

ME: Me?

MYSELF: Don't

ME: But...

MYSELF: Shush!

ME: But I...
MYSELF: You what?

ME: I just can't stop thinking about this. It was like a dream I never thought would come real. A wish I never

expected to come true no matter how much I wanted to

MYSELF: And now?

ME: I'm gonna try

MYSELF: But it's not what...

ME: I said I'll try! Without any pressure. No commitments no nothing. This is what I want

MYSELF: I don't think it'll be enough for you; nor any good

ME: It makes me happy. I am happy. How could that be wrong? I am gonna try. But not my way. I'll try to find the best way there is. And I'm gonna fight for this. For h...

MYSELF: But!..

ME: Shush! I said I will

MYSELF: Are you..?

ME: What?

MYSELF: Nothing

ME: What?

MYSELF: Don't say it. I know you are, don't say it. It may scare somebody off

ME: It won't cause I'm not saying anything. That's not the point

MYSELF: Love is not the...?

ME: No!

MYSELF: Then what is?

ME: Happiness...

MYSELF: You're troubled

ME: I am

MYSELF: So am I..

ME: Well I am looking at you and you back at me so..

 

I: F**k. I'm late for my appointment!

(Walks away from the mirror, gets hastily dressed and rushes out of the apartment belated as usual for her business date)

 

What a messy world we live in.. So intense. So passionate. So wonderful... Oh yes it was. It was so wonderful... And I just can't stop thinking about this. I feel so happy and alive and it's all because...

 

ME: Shut the f**k up and get your a*s in the tram!

I: Ok ok jeez!..