Locked out of my Mind

I hate being alone, its horrible.
I used to love it, the silence, the serenity but now, my mind, my greatest ally has turned against me.
for so long I was able to dodge reality, stray, from the true, painful world,
to my own world, where I rule, where everythings ok
completly independent
from any hardship I faced.
But I can do that no longer,
I cant escape, I cant run to my mind for protection,
and when I try,
it traps me
it locks me in and I am forced to relive
all of my pain, all of my loss,
all of my betrayals,
over, and over again.
why does it punish me?
Ive been through enough but now
in my time of greatest need,
my greatest ally
has become my greatest enemy

 

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[Hope]

You have done an amazing job by showing your emotions that you wanted to get across to your readers. Just a small thing, on line four, did you mean 'was?' All in all, really amazing write! I feel the same way and am going through that. I feel like everywhere i go, i can't feel secure....i hope that you will find that or you have already.