What You've Been Doing To Me

As you can see, I'm in a really bad mood.

You don't seem to understand

The person you have before your eyes.

Making me feel worthless in every way,

When enough people have beaten you to it.

 

Half-alive, I'm already dead inside.

How dead do I need to be?

Just for you to see within me

A person that has done nothing wrong

To a single f*****g soul on this planet

So why do I feel so dead inside?

 

A worthless failure, nothing to you

Nor to anyone else it seems

So why am I holding on to this thread

Why won't God himself just let me go

To endure the freedom from this slavery

I've always wanted to have.

 

Wanting to give up everything

Sick of trying

Sick of lying

Sick of hiding behind this razor blade

Smile, pretty...and just pretend.

 

 

Fighting for my life,

Because I know that you won't

Hope you're happy with what you've done

'Cause inside I'm officially DEAD.

Reviews

[Allyson]

Well written, very relatable.
I've felt the same way sometimes.
Thanks for writing this :D

[Y.F.]

I'm sorry to hear you were in a bad mood - I hope everything's better now, and also that this poem is mostly fiction.

Sometimes you need to use your voice in order to be heard, even if you think it should be obvious. An honest conversation about what's bothering you could do wonders. I've actually been in a few situations lately which taught me the value of honestly communicating what's on my mind. Give it a go - you won't regret it. :)

[Dahlia Phoenix]

"A worthless failure, nothing to you
Nor to anyone else it seems
So why am I holding on to this thread
Why won't God himself just let me go
To endure the freedom from this slavery
I've always wanted to have."

This is beautifully written. So many emotions speak for themselves of the mistreatment and what one has to endure for the other to be satisfied. We sometimes die inside knowing that our faith will never intervene with the abuse of this nature. Thank you for a wonderful poem.

[*~*Butterfly Kisses*~*]

Yes, you certainly sound like you're in a bad mood. But it shows in a raw, emotional sort of way. Nicely done, though!