Anxiety.

It's 5 AM. I can't make these word stop.

I can't stop thinking.

Rushing thoughts fill my head. 

Why did I do that? 

Why did I f**k this up?

Why did I say that?

Anxiety.

Won't leave me alone.

These voices.

My voice.

Screaming at me.

I beg them to hush. 

I beg them to go to back back to sleep.

They don't listen.

I let out a few tears.

I can't stop.

My voice tells them to keep coming.

Why do I keep getting distracted?

I don't want to focus on the problem at hand.

I dissociate.

Disconnect.

Anything to stop the pain.

Anything to avoid.

Anxiety won't leave me alone.

This monster is my true partner for life. 

Author's Note

Still pretty rusty with poetry