Empty Childhood Memories

Have you seen my missing childhood?

The memories are no longer there.

I’m searching for an explanation,

but it’s dissolving in the air.

In my dreams I can almost grasp it,

touch the face of the child I once knew.

But when the image sets alight,

I only see the darkness in which I grew.

Have you seen my missing childhood?

I can no longer sense my youth.

I walk a depressing travel,

knowing I’ll never see the truth.

A foggy set of absence,

I’m acting out the scene.

Wasted trees along the walkway,

feeling anything but serene.

Have you seen my missing childhood?

Is this cracked road my only view?

I need a better understanding,

just a light to help me through.

Do I have a specific destination,

or am I on a never ending street?

These apparitions are all consuming,

one by one taking out my fleet.

Have you seen my missing childhood?

The memories are no longer there.

I’m searching for an explanation,

but it’s dissolving in the air.

Author's Note

I haven't written in a while. But I was browsing the interweb and saw something that started as 'Have you seen my missing childhood?" and it inspired this poem. I only read that line and this is what came to me. The picture isn't exactly what I was hoping to find, but it was the closest to what I was looking for. It may change.

Reviews

[RedInk524]

Ah, it has been a while since you last wrote. Hmmm... Interesting. Perhaps it is best you dont remember your childhood, some people have very unpleasant ones, like mine for example. Mine was full of abuse, bullying, and psychiatric fuckups which made it all worse. So i wish i was in your situation. Some things are best left undone or unknown. But dont let that bring you down, what happened then is behind you. Focus on now and on the future. Dont let a screwed up childhood screw up your adulthood. And even if you would have had a pleasant childhood it wouldnt have made a difference. You are you.

[Blessed_Angel]

wow that is great good job :)

[Fairytale]

I liked this poem. It was very easy to get through and not overly complicated with metaphors. I got a sense of emptiness and lonliness from a youth passed forgotten.

[Little Birdie]

That is horribly sad. I've had a great childhood so I can't say I relate but it's really deeply depressing.

[Dearantlers]

Wow! This is amazing. You always write the most amazing poems!

[Coyote Poetry]

I like the desire of this poem. Open doors to many question and made the reader want to know more. A entertaining poem that left the reader thinking and pondering. Thank you for a excellent poem.
coyote

[Sleeping Maiden]

I really love this. Yeah, it's been a while since you wrote. But you got it back. =D Quite interesting about childhood memories.. -sigh- I remember mine but there are still pieces I can't recall. But I agree with Redlink..
Our experiences makes us who we are. I've been through a lot during my childhood.. many I wish i could forget... some I wish I could redo.. but then thats focusing on the past that will never change. So, we need to look and focus on the "Now" and our future that lies ahead. =) Great write girl!

[VelvetRosetta]

You know at times I wish my childhood would Dissolve into the air...
Wonderful how some words connect with us and we are inspired to write.
Keep it up, I enjoyed this piece.

[Jazique]

Nice and don't we all wonder and search for. The times when we played outside and at our first bug. Making mug pies and watching day let us win. The memories with family and friends you wonder where the time goes as you only get two months out of the year to make this memories you lost over time. As to the smile you once share on a child's face you wonder if you can tell it to your own as your childhood's memories are fading away. Excellent job looking in that interweb.

[paradise]

Wow I get the connection I full on love this poem :)