Your Light That I So Detest

Jealousy? Hate? Self loathing?

From the day we met

I knew I felt something towards you

Something I can't explain

Something I can't put into words

I'm happy that I met you 

But I'm sad that I met you

Because you have someone

And that someone I cannot be

I never understood this world

This world that looked like a dungeon 

Just waiting to swallow me whole

But ever since you came I think I know a little more

I know what I feel towards you now

I can put it into words

I know why I cannot be that someone

I'll tell you why

I still don't understand this world

But I know why it's become a little clearer since you've came

...

I hate you

Despise your existence

That is why that someone i cannot be

You became a light in my eyes

A glimmer in the dark

But that just made me detest you more

Because this world is unfair

This world is cruel

You came, lit a flame

and showed me my scars

You are the reason why I cannot look in the mirror

Why I can't wear short sleeves

You may back fire and say I did this to myself

But no I didn't

I didn't 

I didn't 

I DIDN'T 

I DID NOT

Because without your light 

I would not have seen 

If I didn't see

I would not have seen these scars

 

Author's Note

Please notify me on any spell errors