Questioning Myself

The sun can set so beautifully, With the warmth resting to my skin, never ending thoughts run wild as questions scramble. Sorrow holds onto a heart filled with regret,,,,pain. Looking out to an on coming future, unexpected events. "What do you do now?" A question I ask myself over an over again. The answer is far from my reach. I cannot grasp the idea of a tainted life but yet my heart cries out in desperation. In acceptance of who I am. So the question repeats. Constantly. I can bow my head down,,,,eyes closed,,,thinking..."What do I do now." After a while I open my eyes as I stare into the sunset. Tear filled eyes. What I do now,,,is forgiveness. To those around me....as well as myself. What I do now is intirely up to my heart, I must follow a path where my past will not repeat itself. I stare at my hands and wonder, "Can a person like me,,,really be forgiven? Will all my sorrow an pain disappear if I can forgive myself. Will the regret an guilt wash away over time as I began to forget,,,answers I seek,,,,