Stranger turned Best Friend turned Lover turned Stranger

He wants to be friends...lmao don't make me laugh.

July third, twenty-fourteen.

I gave up on you...on us...

on July 3rd 2014 and you're back at random and after all of the damage with a request to be 'friends'?? You know how much I've been hurt dealing with you for the past 7 months even if you couldn't understand it...and you wanna act like nothing happened and be friends? I told you I've changed and I'm not how I used to be so maybe that's another reason for you not to like me, but you hit me up out of the blue, asking to be friends...? 

YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME AND YOU SAID I WAS THE ONE YOU WANTED AND YOU TREATED ME LIKE A QUEEN BUT THEN YOU STOPPED TREATING ME LIKE YOUR LOVER AND YOU DIDN'T EVEN TREAT ME LIKE A FRIEND AND LATER COME TO FIND OUT YOU WAS GIVING ALL OF YOUR LOVE TO A GIRL FROM THE PAST TO A GIRL WHO YOU LOVED AND I WAS JUST SUPPOSED TO GET THE MEMO BECAUSE WHEN I SAID I THOUGHT WE WERE STILL TOGETHER AND I WAS WAITING AND WAITING JUST WAITING FOR YOU TO LOVE ME AGAIN YOU SAID OTHERWISE! BUT YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS?! YOU USED ME TO FILL THE HOLE OF YOUR HURT AND I LET YOU DO IT BECAUSE I WANTED TO FIX IT AND WITH ALL OF MY TIME AND EFFORT WENT MY SELF RESPECT BECAUSE YOU OBVIOUSLY DON'T RESPECT ME LIKE YOU USED TO! IF YOU RESPECTED ME YOU WOULDN't HAVE LEFT ME HANGING FOR MONTHS ON END AND IF YOU RESPECTED ME YOU WOULDN'T HAVE LET ME BELIEVE YOU WAS MINE AND IF YOU RESPECTED ME YOU WOULD NOT FORGET ME FOR 20 DAYS THEN ONLY REMEMBER ME BECAUSE I ACCIDENTALLY CALLED YOU ON THE 20TH NIGHT! IF YOU RESPECTED ME YOU WOULD NOT HAVE RESPONDED A DAY OUT OF THE WEEK AND A DAY OUT OF THE NEXT TWO! YOU WOULDN'T HAVE IGNORED MY MESSAGE BACK IN JULY AND HIT ME UP IN OCTOBER DAYS BEFORE OUR ANNIVERSARY ASKING TO BE FRIENDS WHILE YOU'RE BACK WITH YOUR EX WHO LEFT YOU MULTIPLE TIMES AND SHE KEEPS COMING BACK KNOWING YOUR PITIFUL A*S IS WAITING FOR HER! I still cry when I think about you. I'm thoroughly ashamed and you don't see all this pain...

If you loved me like you said you did, you wouldn't have treated me like S**T after I completely fell for you. ...and you wanna be friends...?

I hate you.

Author's Note

Free write