Wide Open

Open Wide
giving your body enough water
is as equally important as giving it enough rest
but if the only time you feel alive
and the only time you feel free
is the time when the world around you
seems to take a sigh of relief
does it really matter?
does being in a paralysed state of half
conciousness,
hold any water?
i feel a hypnogogic sensation
when i am submerged into the nights
independance
i........ i do not have the words to describe it,
the clearness of the blindness,
you make sence it
of this and that
possiblity, and facts
you could react or do nothing
the night has no pressure
the night is comforting.
I suppose in some sence, its better to be asleep
because when you sleep
you dream
you are not pondering
your thoughts laying in bed at night
could drag you down a bumpy line
when you sleep, you pause the pain
your body relaxes, the one time in your life
you are allowed to be weak.
But i would rather take the risk!
a small taste of the nights passion
could last me weeks
i dont like my thoughts
but i wont sleep
i simply love
allowing myself to breath in the cool air
so invigorating
i am it,
it is me.
kurara is not worth it