Love Doesn't Seem A Part Of Me

Why do I seem so different,

From everyone else I see,

Smiling, laughing and in love,

While I’m partnered with misery

 

Why does my heart beat,

At such a slow and irregular pace,

Maybe that’s the reason,

I’m always last in love’s race

 

Maybe it’s my head that’s to blame,

Too anxious and too down,

People can’t see past the mask I wear,

The one forever painted with a frown

 

It’s bound to lie with the nerves I’ve frayed,

Only pulsing with the pain,

The hurt, sorrow, grief and loss,

Repeatedly my life’s bain

 

Maybe it’s the pills I’m given,

The ones that numb the bad,

The ones that also numb the joy,

The happiness, glee and glad

 

My age could have a part to play,

Sickened by the past,

Walls constructed round my heart,

To protect me from the blast

 

Yet all I long for in my life,

Is that best friend, sole mate and companion,

The one who treasures all of me,

And shows me understanding.

Reviews

[andrew mitchell]

A sad poem, the loneliness seeps through the flowing verses as does the longing for somebody to share a life with and the walls we build, the rules we abide to, to protect us can actually be an obstacle to a happy path. One has to change one's mindset to attract like a butterfly to a flower. Nice writing..

[Bluebird]

Really appreciate this :)