Into The Hole I Go

Into the hole I go

Reliving moments that hurt me the most

What is wrong with me?

I find myself in this same hole

All too often

As I try to scratch my way out

I find myself only falling deeper

Into the hole I go

Back to this old beaten bench I sit

Waiting for a sign that will pull me out

But it never comes

I am left to succumb to the very thoughts

That put me here

Where did I go wrong?

Into the hole I go

I am convinced this hole of lies and distrust

Is my home now

Insecurities showing their best hospitality

"Come in and get comfortable.

We're going to be here for awhile"

Maybe this is what I deserve

Into the hole I go

The icy feeling of loneliness

Could make the Sahara heat index

Leave me feeling like Alaska

Surrounding my heart with zero degree temperatures

Into the hole I go

I like to make deals with the demons

Negotiate my every next move

Hoping that one day

My demons will save me

But until then I must wait

Into the hole I go

Author's Note

ignore grammar problems

Reviews

[Andrew Nelson Stewart]

I heard once “When a poet digs himself into a hole, he doesn't climb out. He digs deeper, enjoys the scenery, and comes out the other side enlightened.” Here the title automatically provides the foundation where the reader can get a deeper feel that you had intended here which is beautifully penned. The digging enjoying the scenery which is impossible to do when the demons always rig the game. That imagery is powerful In the line " Into the hole I go
I like to make deals with the demons
Negotiate my every next move." Yet these demons not all evil as portrayed cause you mention the possibility of rescue from these weights keeping you down. Keep writing this is my favorite. Sincerely your friend in writing and life

[Broken.]

Thank you dearly for your review, friend. (:
Always welcome

[barleygirl]

Such brilliant writing, makes me envious! I believe most people are more inclined to be down than up. It's pretty hard work to stay up overwhelmingly thru-out life & even when one has mastered it, there's still that downward tug haunting all the time. I love the number of times you repeat the title phrase thru-out the poem (I'm not a fan of mindless repetition, but yours is used judiciously) -- and where you use it -- nicely impactful & reinforcing. This is powerful writing top to bottom & yet it also has this careless, snarky who-gives-a-f**k undertone that I love (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Broken.]

You're too kind barleygirl. I had hoped the repetition would symbolize how difficult it can be to be trying to be positive sometimes. Like a constant fight, so hard to stay ahead that I'm like well f**k it then. Haha

[Dave Brown]

I am thinking you must have taken your computer down there with you and spent your time either sleeping or writing and reviewing poetry
At least, sounds like a good place to stay away from covid 19
Thanks for all your visits

[Broken.]

You're welcome! And thank you for yours! Yes, the hole is very confident in keeping the covid out :P

[Chris Shaw]

Into the hole I go. Into to the pit of negativity. Drawn in, sucked in to wallow on all those things which are cringe worthy. Once caught into negative thinking, it can spiral out of control. Can be difficult to escape. That's where your lines took me. The repetition worked well Broken.

Chris

[Broken.]

Thank you for the review Chris. That's exactly what I was feeling in the moment. Not very positive I know, but I am working on that (: