Evil, Thanks For The Poem.

Evil, Thanks For The Poem.

A Poem by Broken Wings
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Purging the soul of some baggage from childhood.

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All my young life all I ever wanted was your love

Some form of encouragement that I am valid

A few kind words, a nod of admiration

That my birth, was cause for celebration

 

A sign that I, as your daughter, existed

Worthy, somewhere in the chasms of your cold heart

No matter how hard I tried, you resisted

I was naively loyal but never good enough for the part

 

Instead your words were filled with hate

With all your daily torments and taunts

You said I was unlovable, a mistake

Your words… my life… they haunt

 

The bruises, they do fade eventually

The pain your vile words caused me

I will never be able to forget

My pillow can’t forgive you, all the hurt I wept

 

The empty bottles bleeding tears

As you suck out every drop

Collect the bottles from all the years

That the hurting never stopped

 

You could build a mountain

Out of all the bottled glass

You could never count them

For you haven’t drunk your last

 

Just leave me alone, your “mothering” has no use

Your “hard” life, you always use as the excuse

“Oh poor me”, it’s always everyone else to blame

Oh the other side of my family? Only a father with no name

 

Hurting and beating are not your only crimes

 “I’ve changed” you say for the millionth time

A sentence I always hear, but you’ll always be the same

For I am just a name, responsibility, you will never claim

 

For your only daughter, nor the pain that you caused

All the scars and bruises, still visible on my soul

Your disgusting behaviour awarded you applause

I pay the price you see; on me you took your toll

 

You kicked me on the streets at age 13

But you broke me the day that I was born

With all your empty bottles and misery you cause

With all the beatings, each blow, my soul is torn

 

Weeping, seeping, blackened, wrought with your disease

I’m ashamed to have your name on my family tree

Disgusted by the DNA, that I can’t bleed out of me

You tarnished me, I was happier on the street


The street where you left me cold and all alone

Nobody to love me, no place to call my own

The title “mother” should always provide a home

Instead you beat me, defeat me, and toss me out

Like a cold and heartless stone

 

Your words engraved into my head

There they rest politely waiting to be read

You will never fully get, all the pain you cause

Read my words carefully don’t you dare take a pause

 

You are the E in evil you really make me sick

All the drunken Episodes causing nights of panic

V is for the Violence of which you did inflict

Ferocious hits and nasty bites, rip my soul to bits

 

I is for the Insecurity that you put in me

Depression and anxiety of which I am not free

You should have given me the chance to be

The careless, cheerful, child that I would happily call me

 

L is for the Love you never showed and the Love you stole away

When you told my family with me they cannot stay

You should have given me to them, instead of causing pain,

Given me a home to have, you should have stayed away

 

EVIL is what you are and what you mean to me

I will never call you ‘mother’ because I’d be speaking too highly

You don’t deserve a millionths chance after all you've done

Go drown in the bottle, in your life; it’s your number one

 

Bottle before baby, housing, love or food

That same old bottle that put fury into your every mood

Go and drink till the last drop parts ways on your lips

Just know that you’ll die alone because of all of this.

© 2013 Broken Wings


Author's Note

Broken Wings
Thank you to anyone who reads :) Feedback is appreciated.

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This in my opinion was a very brave poem because it was so personal. My father is an alcoholic so I really related to this. It almost made me tear up in several places. Art always tries to evoke that kind of emotional response but it has to be painfully honest like your poem to succeed. Great Job.

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Broken Wings

10 Years Ago

I'm sorry you can relate to this Justink. Thank you for your kind words and review. Yes you are righ.. read more



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Your poem... it's really beautiful. I don't read a lot of poetry but that was so touching and damn. You got me crying.

Posted 9 Years Ago


This in my opinion was a very brave poem because it was so personal. My father is an alcoholic so I really related to this. It almost made me tear up in several places. Art always tries to evoke that kind of emotional response but it has to be painfully honest like your poem to succeed. Great Job.

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Broken Wings

10 Years Ago

I'm sorry you can relate to this Justink. Thank you for your kind words and review. Yes you are righ.. read more
Wow, such heart-wrenching feelings coming from this piece. Another favorites here on WC, thank you.

Posted 10 Years Ago


Broken Wings

10 Years Ago

Thank you Adam, I'm glad you liked it. Yes, it is a written part of my soul.
wow totally emotional. i can feel your angst. great write!

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Broken Wings

10 Years Ago

Thank you hun :)
Amazing... another amazing piece of poetry... Completely fueled by emotion and power. I felt everything... it was so real in every way. For a moment, I was in the world of the poem, another world, completely encapsulated by the words, rhyme and emotion. Brilliant work. I loved it.

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Broken Wings

10 Years Ago

Thank you so much, that means a lot to me. It's so nice of you to take the time to review it and lea.. read more
Katho28

10 Years Ago

you're welcome :) I'm glad to have read it... it was a brillant piece of poetry :)
Heart-wrenching, evocative and so cleverly thought out and penned into a such a powerful poetic story!

Awesome write !

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Broken Wings

10 Years Ago

Thank you Tom, I appreciate you pausing on my page and leaving such a nice review.
Very, very, open and heart-wrenchingly painful to read. Unfortunately also familiar. Sometimes poetry is the only way to vent out the pain that would otherwise destroy you. I applaud your courage in laying this down in print. It shows a great deal of strength.

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Broken Wings

10 Years Ago

I'm sorry this is familiar to you :( Very true, poetry is a great way to vent emotions and give a vo.. read more
heart bleeds inwardly......tears just rolls off after reading this :(
very well expressed..:)

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Broken Wings

10 Years Ago

:( sorry I made you cry, but I am glad you felt the emotion, thank you Vani :)
wow, wow, i just - wow, completely speechless. i just love it ! great poem! i can just feel the emotions and all that just coming out of the screen through your words, wow, just cant say anything more.
More Power, :))

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Broken Wings

10 Years Ago

Thank you! Your review is very humbling and sweet. I really appreciate you stopping by to read it an.. read more
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DJ
Nice title change, I like it!!!

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.


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Tags: #pain, #broken, #hurt, #abuse, #evil

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Broken Wings

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