HEAVY

just trying to describe the feelings, the heaviness, of the down-cycle of BiPolar Disorder

 

I can feel it

holding me back

pushing me down

the heaviness of

an unexplainable grief

a numbness that has no reason

a sickness for which there is no cure

 

of missing the person I once was

not knowing who I am now

wondering who I will become

 

of worry

regret

guilt

fatigue

sleeplessness

anger

listlessness

 

the inability to explain,

the difficulty in understanding

and being understood

the heartache

 

bogs me down

beats me up

draws me in

bottoms me out

 

wanting to be alone

feeling lonely

 

dismay

hollowness

 

it is heavy

I can feel IT.

 

is disquieting

is difficult

the unhappiness

is ponderous

this

is burdensome

this sadness

is troublesome

the uneasiness

leaves me breathless

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

the weight

the oppressiveness

Reviews

[Ralphy]

Wow Carrie, I impressed with the display of words to describe Heavy. The overwhelming attention to detail creates a unforgettable impression of how one deals with such a issues. It appears to cause many related problems like depression, which just amplifies the existing issue. The one nice part about the human mind is it much stronger and sound then our physical self.
I love the way you wrote and describe this poem, and it shows many of the worries and the ability to adapt. Nice write

[Ravenskald]

The image I have from this is of drowning,
falling into the abyss
The lines get shorter , the air gets shorter
And this is written so
I can feel it too

~Raven

[Wicahpi]

Excellent!

I think so many of us feel exactly this, sometimes.
Nicely done.

Wicahpi

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Wow Carrie I must say I can feel the heaviness alright... I also understand for I have felt this way many times... life just seems to throw everything at you at once and leaves you completely drained emotionally.. very nice venting of emotions my friend.