You have saved me

For the many people who gave me hope when I had none.

                   

    






















   You have saved me

I remember sitting alone. Holding two brothers photos.
Suicide was their escape from the cold and heartless world.

Two Ojibwa/Mexican boys who saw no road except death as peace.

I caressed my 30-30 rifle.
I didn't see any reason to keep going.
Their death laid heavy on my soul.

The phone  started to ring. I answered the call.

A old voice with kindness. My Grandmother begin to speak to me.
"We miss and love you baby. I want to see you. The family need you. Are you Ok? Grandma need her baby boy alive and strong."

I hung the phone up.
I put the 30-30 in the closet.
My Grandmother knew somehow I needed kind words. She saved me.














   















I was drinking myself to death.
I lost my first true love.
I saw no reason to give a s**t.

My friends were not helping in Germany.
Drinking was our peace.

My time in Germany was getting short.
I decided to say goodbye to my old lover.

I went to her.
I found her crying.

She yelled at me.
Told me he is dead. Are you happy?

I told her I knew nothing and I was sorry.
I held her for three days.

I brought her good whiskey and food.
Insured she was Ok.

She asked "Why was I  being kind to her?
I wasn't kind to you."

I kissed her forehead.
Silence was my answer.
I came to her for a goodbye.
I tried to save her.
Somehow I saved myself too.


Life is a fair journey. We must love and protect our family and friends.
Kindness bring kindness. Forgiveness need time and a lot of love.

We must be saved and we must return the kindness.

Laughter is life. We must hold on to it.
  
                         Coyote
                      March  2011

Author's Note

Any mistakes. Please advice. Never too old to learn. Life is hard. We will need many people to assist and love us.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Mistakes don't matter when someone writes from the heart. To alter a poet or writer's words is like removing a freckle ..

What a wonderful tribute to those very precious people in your life.. This truly is more than sincere .. more than special. Thank you so much for sharing.

[cynthiabuhainbaello]

The written work is more like prose/poetry in narrative form, but it told the story excellently, although not completely. The style is random, snippets of the past come like memory flashes, giving several feelings as the story progressed. Still you maintained the interest of the reader and held the unity of the theme together. Very honest and revealing write. Your grandmother looks exactly like my Mom and the photo brought back her memory today. Thank you C.

[AlieahRose]

ONCE AGAIN YOU'VE...
LEFT ME THINKING...
AND YOUR STORIES...
ALWAYS TOUCH MY...
HEART GREAT JOB...
THANKS FOR SHARING...

[WhiteWillow]

An incredibly heart-wrenching piece, but with a positive message of hope, love, forgiveness, and more hope. Very touching...thanks for sharing.

[joshua deathdealer]

This is so touching on so many different levels. I love this very much Coyote..

[TPK Stories]

Couldn't see any mistakes...just "kindness"...sometimes we all need a little at some point....

[Ice QueenJen]

although sad at times, it brings with it a glimpse of happiness and hope. Never underestimate the power of grandma's and there intuition of knowing when we need a kind word to make us feel better. And you paid it forward by saving your friend from her sadness. Thank you for sharing this and the photo's too.

[KimLove "The Beautiful ..]

You are an a very gifted man. I think this might be the frist time I have read one of your writes but I can gaurentee it will not be the last. You are very correct when you said"Life is a fair journey. We must love and protect our family and friends. Kindness bring kindness. Forgiveness need time and a lot of love.
We must be saved and we must return the kindness.
Laughter is life. We must hold on to it.
Thank you for writing this and making someone understand. xo

[Pebbles]

This is on such a deep level and yep we all need love and forgiveness and the strentgh to love and forgive others , maybe this would be enough to keep us all strong in this world ..... brilliant write