Cold steel

Old poem (1980) with a rewrite. Anger can lead us to hell. After the pits of hell. Can't get worst?

            





                   










 Cold steel

Baby, I told you.
Ain't no heart in my chest.
I'm just a body that does the daily functions.

I'm dead.
I died a long time ago.
I could tell you a story.
But my words are even locked up now.

You are young.
Still able to love.
Don't give your love to a man who eyes are dead.

It is myth.
That you can bring back the dead to life.
 Cold steel can only melt on the  trip to hell.

When you can't remember the good times.
The tender moments.
You are just a body waiting for the end.

I have the hunger to touch beautiful things.
I'm well trained.
I will eat you alive.
Leave you for dead.

I won't care.
If you are laying in sadness and pity.

Cool steel is my name.
My hunger is to look into the eyes of dark Angels.
Who will dance the twisted dance of who can punish the other more.

I may tell you I love you.
 Just words. Just a means to get you to invite me into the
warmth of your warm flesh,
till I release my desire into flesh and bones.

I was told time heal all wounds.
One more lie, given to us by people trying to pry the
kindness out of us.

I don't desire love.
I don't want your pity.
Don't need nothing but to dance in the heat of the warm flesh.

If you want me to love you, my child.
You should escape now.
For the wall of my heart is mighty tough.

On my trip to hell.
I won't tell no stories.
I was the man called Cold Steel.

I told you I'm dead.
If you are a fool.
Try to break down the steel wall.

One day.
I will kiss you goodbye.
I will watch your tears.
I will tell you.
You wasted your love on a man with a steel heart and no emotion.
I will leave you without feeling any regret.

So my child.
Walk away.
For something can't be changed.
I'm dead and buried. A long time ago.

I can't remember when or why I died.

Cold steel is my name.

                                   Coyote
                                   1980

Author's Note

A old poem. When anger was the strength to get me by. I like the old poems. I can't remember the anger from 32 years ago.

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

several years ago...some of my friends went to Nam and came back so different....a part of the them had died...and in some cases it was the heart. a certain cold steel feeling they had...not accepting love because they just had a coldness about them...but also not being able to accept love because they always felt it came out of or from pity...
this is an amazing piece of writing...it's all too real.

j.

[Coyote Poetry]

Was real for me once. A kind woman saved my life. Thank you for reading and the comment my friend.

[Mark]

I relate to the overall sentiment and I liked a few of the lines especially. "cold steel can only melt on the trip to hell" and "I'm well trained" stuck in my head.

[Moriarty]

Amazing amazing piece...love the way the words flow...the tide of raw emotions, brilliantly written...and so much meaning in each line...its fabulous what you do with simple words...you breathe so much life into them....its such a deligh to read your work...love this piece!!!!

[kdpgrahi]

An old poem but still makes its relevance now. Ever green poems! Very rare persons are able to pen such poems. I love it

[Ruth]

Wow!
Yes, anger can lead to all things negative but this is interesting work...the sheer conviction is truly written from the heart! The reader can see that, poignantly and painfully so.
On one hand the love is appreciated but on the other...there is still a good heart - enough to warn and say "walk away" in order to save pain!
The eyes can sometimes appear dead..but they are not...they just glaze for a while until we get through whatever it is we are suffering, perhaps :)
Beautifully written love xoxo

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

The name cold steel in itself is powerful...
the anger intesnly converyed...
terrific work!!

[Kim]

Such raw emotions Coyote, A powerful piece here. Kind of sad.

[BlueDreams]

Such a killing rage reflected here ... Oh god awesome read it was... :-)

[Robbie~xoxo~]

There is a raw anger voiced here...My heart breaks as I read the harsh emotion of hatred pouring out. This is one of the most emotionally honest pieces I have read. Great write.