Lost in the Darkness

I was walking through a beautiful forest
it was a glorious day
the birds were singing

the sweetest melody I had ever heard

A cool breeze was entwining itself

through the leaves of the trees

giving them a voice

beyond human capacity to understand
They shared their ancient secrets

as I walked aimlessly in their midst

My joy was complete that day

and I was at peace

Vaguely I remembered

that another life awaited me

away from this place

of whispering trees

and hidden secrets
but so much was I entranced by my surrounds

that it slipped away from me

became lost somewhere
in the corners of my mind

 

Nothing mattered anymore
all sense of reality left me
as I wandered timelessly

through this place

of indescribable beauty
through this place

of dreams

of fantasy

wonder

and joy

 

So lost was I

in my forest of light
that I did not see the darkness

as it stole upon me
I did not understand that without the light

the forest would become a dark and foreboding place

a place of nightmares
of fear and loss

At first I was blinded by the light
by the beauty of all that surrounded me
but when the darkness came upon me

it rendered me sightless

I stumbled

cried out for help

but no one but the trees heard me

and they were heartless

and did not care

The once cool breeze

had turned into an angry beast

that sunk its cold fingers

into my flesh

I was lost
Unseen by the world

I fell to the mossy ground

aware of the creatures

that lived in its depths
but no longer caring

Anguish flooded my soul
I wanted to cry out
to scream and fight

but there was no point

no one would hear me
no one would save me

I was invisible

to the rest of the world
entrapped

in a cocoon of darkness

unknown

unloved

uncared for

Hopelessness came

and I welcomed it
I surrendered myself to the night
to the deep loneliness

that had always threatened
to overwhelm my soul

I lay helpless

in the darkness of that night
for countless hours
The trees stood all around me

like soulless sentries

keeping a merciless guard

over this lost soul

who had wandered aimlessly

into their midst

I felt the life seeping out of me

as the cold hands of the wind

made their home

deep within my bones

Then something stirred deep within me
a memory of the life I once had
of who I knew I could be

came fighting through the mists of my heart
I felt a jump in my spirit

as the spark of life

reignited itself within me

Slowly I opened my eyes
forced myself to rise

from the grips of death

Miraculously
through the forest of soulless trees

I saw

the light of a new day had appeared

Tentatively

I took a step towards the light

One

then another

until slowly

painfully
but with endless determination

I found my way home

Author's Note

Any thoughts on this? It's something I wrote a while back but have been working on again and rehashing, it has another part to it that i might publish later. I hope you enjoy.

Reviews

[Misery]

This spiritual poem reminds me of your book "Doorways To The Soul".
Thank you for sharing this journey through darkness and pain, dear Carol.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you Kevin.

[Misery]

You are truly welcome.

[Dream Weaver]

Your paraphrasing is on the mark, truly a dark piece
giving embodiment with a tad of encouragement towards
the end. Nice work, great read!

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you :)

[Dream Weaver]

Always welcome. :)

[poetry-kiddo alienbaba]

A dream walk yes....a dream walk in a parallel dimension

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you :)

[poetry-kiddo alienbaba]

yess

[Frieda P]

Truly brilliant and touched all my senses. I'm so glad you ended with 'hope'...

[Overrated-World]

Your pieces affect us in such a good way, Great.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much :)

[Tate Morgan]

It is no wonder we once feered the forest and gave toit special monsters that populated its very reaches.Until the invention of the lightbulb this wass the truth for all of us. What embraces us in the daylight is the coldest forboding in the nioght.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Yes very true :)

[John B]

I can only guess what inspired this poem but it seems like a beautiful interpretation of how horrible depression can be. Struggling through darkness to find the light taking just one step at a time. Might be just my own view but I think you captured the essence of the struggle quite well.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you I like what you saw in it.

[Ahmad Cox]

Wow so amazing and epically beautiful. Words can't begin to describe just how inspired and mesmerizing poem is. God and spirit and our mother are all contained in this one piece.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you that means a lot

[Aly]

I loved this. From beginning to end. Thank you. You were able to really draw me in.
I shows the Highs and Lows of someone's life. How someone can be so low it can seem impossible to get back up. I truly enjoyed it. Thank you.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you I like what you saw in it.

[Aly]

Welcome. I can definetley relate to this. Anyone who has been in a "dark hole" like this can.

[Aly]

But you are very talented my friend :) Keep up the good work.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you Aly I can say the same about you :)

[Aly]

:)

[teardrop]

Long write, but wonderful. I could feel the feelings.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you :)