Sentence Me Another Life

Cause I am f*****g this one up.

I scream a little, I die a little.
More and more, inside and out.
I am dreaming for you to see, the words at which belittle me.
Worthlessness is all I see, it's all I shout.
And the insanity fills in without a single doubt.
My mind is flooding, it's over flowing.
Everyone keeps on going without anyone knowing.
I find myself wishing.
Wishing hard and praying long.
Clinging to the little sanity in my head.
I stare at the places in which I bled.

The silence increases, the light fades.
My life seems to cease, while I work with the blade.
In deep need of a release, at long last to find the peace.
I abandon everything, leave my life behind.
Cause I want to go to a place where I can finally unwind.

A place I know I can't escape.
A place that has taken it's own shape.
A place I have created to deal with myself.

Myself is a complicated person
Making her case difficult and worsen.
Somethings make no sense.
Everyday and everything is always so tense.
Desperate in need of answers
Even if they may be wrong or right.
Then maybe things can be a little alright.

Reviews

[yash]

you know what, we always write what is in our minds, and what's in there is a result of some either some event or stimulus. In straight words, i wanted you to confirm that what you 've written, at some point of time, you must have gone through all of this. As suggested from the details of the situations faced, i drew such a conclusion.
Secondly, in the line,"I am dreaming for you to see, the words at which belittle me", i kinda feel like i should have been like,"I am dreaming for you to see, the words at which you belittle me". Just a suggestion i am suggesting since i felt so.
Now, finally i 'd like to express, how much i appreciate this piece of poetry, since it also links to some phases of my life, i would say it is a great piece of work(Well i am not that good at appreciating but criticizing, so just try to understand the feelings).

[FrikinFrancesca]

Thank you. I wrote this when I was in a very dark place in my life, so to come back and notice that people are still respecting something I wrote when I was 16 is great.
This poem still really connects, I don't have to even think about what this is about, I just know automatically.

[yash]

so, i was right about my skeptic conclusions..

[Matthew Kult]

Great flow. Very well thought our and I love the word use. I will have to say this is one of my favorites that I have read in some time. You are an excellent writer. Keep it up.

[Joshua Donahue]

I really liked it! I could most definitely relate in ways more than one. It connects with people who have a hectic life they want escape or a life they hate. It reminds me of one of those days when you wake up and you don't wanna get out of bed, but you do because you HAVE to do it. Love it!

[Loner]

Very thought provoking.