Hidden Rejection

A poem about a guy who, stupidly, breaks your heart without knowing it...

It's okay,

Leave me without sympathy.

My heart's been broken so many times

That I don't cry anyway.

Give me another scar,

That's fine.

It's not the only one...

It's not the first time.

Please,

Stop defending your reason,

"I didn't want to break your heart."

Too late.

What did you expect?

It would've broken either way.

Ever heard

"Ignorance is bliss?"

Apparently not.

Now I'm even more numb...

My heart will rot.

I'll spend the rest of my life alone,

Living in a cardboard box I'll call home.

My dreams won't come true.

I'll have wasted my life

On stupid dreams like Me and You.

I hope you read this 

And cry 

Like I am.

I thought once I was 

Too numb to love,

To hurt anymore...

Then I discovered

You.

I feel in love with 

You.

You destroyed my walls,

(But rebuilt them 

In 30 seconds.)

I was happy.

You made me a great person:

I forgave enemies,

Smiled every day,

I never wanted escape.

For a few weeks,

I thought I could do anything.

I loved you.

Just hours before,

I was on top of the world.

I couldn't wait to see you,

To talk to you,

To be with you.

Ironic,

Isn't it?

"Are you trying to go out with me?"

My mind whispered 

"Yes!"

My mouth whispered,

 "No"

You told me that was great;

You love someone else.

All my acts of kindness

Were to be friendly...

Not to make you fall in love...

Lies.

Why would I say yes?

What did you expect?

Love isn't that simple!

Why would you tell me 

You fell for her?

Do you know 

How it hurts

To feel the stinging 

Of hidden rejection?

I wonder if you knew

How many poems I wrote 

For You.

How many hours of sleep

Sacrificed to thinking

Of You.

How many day dreams

Wasted 

On You.

Author's Note

So, obviously, this poem is about a guy I really really liked (maybe loved...) who, today, ask me about if I like him...I asked him "Where did you get that idea?" and he went on and said that he got that impression from how nice I was to him all the time...I told him I was just being nice and trying to be a good friend (Half truth, half lie), which would've been okay, but then he said "Yeah, well I kind of have somebody..." I suck up the pain, told him I didn't like him like that, he hugged me, and as I went to walk away to hide my broken heart, he kept trying to justify his reasons to ask me about it in the first place. I don't remember much of what he said after that( I was cutting him off saying "Yeah...it's okay...I understand...it's cool"), but I remember him saying "I didn't want to break your heart." That was one of the most stupid and insensitive things a guy has ever said to me. Honestly, what did he expect would happen? I would stand there, when he asked to talk to me in private, and confess my love for him? Then he would tell me about her and everything would be dandy? I wrote this because I thought I had finally found a great guy who liked me back...It's one of those relationships where you see all the signs so you get really hopeful...then, in a matter of seconds, your heart is destroyed and all the great memories start to seem like stupid wastes of time.

Reviews

[E.V. Black]

I know the feeling. My heart has been broken by a few boys, and it's...unbelievable. You know, sometimes I wish there were something else around heartache. Some way to avoid it. Unfortunately, there isn't. But the good thing is that you can find someone else. Really and truly, I'm sure you will. I hope your heart heals enough to realize that you're not alone in your time of need.
We are all here for you.

[MetBySunlight]

Wow, something similar happened to me. I fell in love with my best guy friend, he was giving me all the signals and then suddenly one day, he's with another girl. Still going out with her, he tells me that he used to like me. I fell a part haha.
I love your poem, people can relate to it and that is awesome!

[TheFemininePad]

A very powerful poem, and certainly a lot of work went into it. I really like how you used all the pictures to empower your message a lot further. I know its hard when you love someone, and they love someone else. I remember a story I heard today about a man who gave his life so his wife could survive a tornado. That is true heartbreak, and speaks a lot about his character. Love is one of the most powerful emotions of all. Great job!

[Chelsea]

i think every girl can relate to this! (sadly tho lol). but i dont like all the extra stuff you have like the music and pictures, i just want to read your poem and it was beautiful

[toniwilliamsga]

i can relate and i love the emotions this is really good!

[Aleyah]

This is really awesome! I like the "real" vibes that this poem gives off, and how blunt the emotions are. I know this feeling all too well, so I can really relate with it. Anyway, wonderful poem, great job :))