Abandoned Carousels

'And I've never felt more alone, it feels so scary getting old'- Lorde

You still remember me

Check up on me 

Out on the balcony

You had a bad dream

And I'd pay money to get my gold back, too

You just want somebody to hold you

Black dresses

And innocent head tilts

To the beat of our heart

That jumps to the drum of Ribs by Lorde

Tangled 2005 cords

Because when I think about it

My back melts, my hands tingle and my ribs cling to the best feeling they've ever known

I want the pottery in the sunflower field

As the sun shines

Some days the clouds come to shield 

And that's our life

That's our calendar of events to come

When all of it ends

And all that's left is

The humming of the mountains

Lavender spewing leaf fountains

I roll up my sleeve

I think this Christmas I'll get on one knee

And I'll ask this time

Because this year I took a note from Harley Quinn

Pushed a man out of the way and fought to win

I learned I don't need anybody to take care of me

Make me happy

But you're not just anybody

The blankets have a rhythm

And maybe I take more care of you

Than you take care of me

But I think that's good for me

Cause I didn't treat or trust myself very well as a teen

I was too busy depending

This ring 

Belongs in syndicated fields 

And the appeal of

Someone else walking down the roadway

Everyday

Don't click or stick so much 

Last August was the best of Supercuts and Loveless

When I had more than enough of this

There'll never be another Italian Ice

But my heart's grown ten times in size

The beginnings of this decade

Was snow hats on repeat

Neotheater was ripped from a piece of me

The Two Way Mirror was out there

And I'm still scared for you, love

Your voice sounds like an abandoned carousel at 3:00 AM under winter stars 

And rain splashing cars

But those glowing stars

They never got far

And the sky is closer in the winter

Technicolor blue neon memories

Down Target halls

Dry throats, perfumed at the mall

Laughing down the dewy grass

Thrown out the teal trash

Purple sky spinning

We're up against the world and winning

They say it drives you crazy getting old

But I'll be back

And I'll be scraping the walls with the sword

Remember our dreams in the football field at night?
Throwing and catching

And symbolisms that are newly found matching

You had to leave me alone for a while

I had to count some tile

I had to rip the fear right out

Stomp it next to cigars on the ground 

It's heavenly to remember our nightmares

The snow glows from where you walk The way you talk You fit better in old photo frames You may be new You’re not the same

© 2021 Vertigo Cat1111

Author's Note

Very much inspired by Lorde, Gabbie Hanna, and AJR, some of the best lyrical songwriters of all time. :D I just barely got into Lorde's music after someone mentioned her in a review! I'm so glad I did! Also, at times my poetry may seem scattered, but it makes more sense if you read any of my stories. But no pressure to read! Enjoy the poem however you like- related to the book, or maybe, hopefully, you can relate to it. (:

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Betty Hermelee

There is so much in this poem; truly sad and some happy memories; when you age and know it is lonely and fearful about what is to come, so you look back upon the good and the bad and try to remember minute details about your lives together and separately. "My back melts, my hands tingle";"They say it drives you crazy getting old";"They'll never be another Italian ice"; I love so many line; it's back and forth between younger days of love and the fear of old age; it's almost like stream of consciousness; so well written in fleeting thoughts as it should be. Best to you, B PS I'm going to read your chapter! There is so much in this poem; truly sad and some happy memories; when you age and know it is lonely and fearful about what is to come, so you look back upon the good and the bad and try to remember minute details about your lives together and separately. "My back melts, my hands tingle";"They say it drives you crazy getting old";"They'll never be another Italian ice"; I love so many line; it's back and forth between younger days of love and the fear of old age; it's almost like stream of consciousness; so well written in fleeting thoughts as it should be. Best to you, B PS I'm going to read your chapter! Rating /100 1 of 1 people found this review constructive. Vertigo Cat1111 2 Years Ago Ah, thank you! That is exactly what I was going for, and I'm so happy you noticed. Thank you, so, so much as always! Betty Hermelee 2 Years Ago Of course, and you’re very welcome😊

Reviews

Coyote Poetry

Outstanding words and thoughts shared my dear friend. "I had to count some tile I had to rip the fear right out Stomp it next to cigars on the ground It's heavenly to remember our nightmares" I did like the above lines. I been in this place a few times. Thank you for sharing the amazing and powerful words. Coyote Outstanding words and thoughts shared my dear friend. "I had to count some tile I had to rip the fear right out Stomp it next to cigars on the ground It's heavenly to remember our nightmares" I did like the above lines. I been in this place a few times. Thank you for sharing the amazing and powerful words. Coyote Rating /100

Betty Hermelee

There is so much in this poem; truly sad and some happy memories; when you age and know it is lonely and fearful about what is to come, so you look back upon the good and the bad and try to remember minute details about your lives together and separately. "My back melts, my hands tingle";"They say it drives you crazy getting old";"They'll never be another Italian ice"; I love so many line; it's back and forth between younger days of love and the fear of old age; it's almost like stream of consciousness; so well written in fleeting thoughts as it should be. Best to you, B PS I'm going to read your chapter! There is so much in this poem; truly sad and some happy memories; when you age and know it is lonely and fearful about what is to come, so you look back upon the good and the bad and try to remember minute details about your lives together and separately. "My back melts, my hands tingle";"They say it drives you crazy getting old";"They'll never be another Italian ice"; I love so many line; it's back and forth between younger days of love and the fear of old age; it's almost like stream of consciousness; so well written in fleeting thoughts as it should be. Best to you, B PS I'm going to read your chapter! Rating /100 1 of 1 people found this review constructive. Vertigo Cat1111 2 Years Ago Ah, thank you! That is exactly what I was going for, and I'm so happy you noticed. Thank you, so, so much as always! Betty Hermelee 2 Years Ago Of course, and you’re very welcome😊

LostSage

wow...reading this is like being on a acid trip man....beautiful 😎 wow...reading this is like being on a acid trip man....beautiful 😎 Rating /100 1 of 1 people found this review constructive. Vertigo Cat1111 2 Years Ago Haha, thank you so much! I appreciate the review endlessly.

Cyprian Van Dyke

Hmm, I think that was my that me that mentioned Lorde's song RIBs. It really is a good song. I also like the mention of Harley Quinn. Now on to your poem: You have a lot of good lines that evoke so much emotion, like "my back melts", "Up against the world and winning" and "it's heavenly to remember our nightmares". Every line of this had me hooked into its sentiment and flow that I didn't want to end. I looked at your poem being about RIBs mostly. Scary growing old, life (things mentioned) pass by so fast type of meaning. I really enjoyed your poem as well as your note. tyfs Hmm, I think that was my that me that mentioned Lorde's song RIBs. It really is a good song. I also like the mention of Harley Quinn. Now on to your poem: You have a lot of good lines that evoke so much emotion, like "my back melts", "Up against the world and winning" and "it's heavenly to remember our nightmares". Every line of this had me hooked into its sentiment and flow that I didn't want to end. I looked at your poem being about RIBs mostly. Scary growing old, life (things mentioned) pass by so fast type of meaning. I really enjoyed your poem as well as your note. tyfs Rating /100 1 of 1 people found this review constructive. Vertigo Cat1111 2 Years Ago Thank you so, so much! And yes, I believe it was you that mentioned it! Thank you again, your reviews are always so kind and uplifting- and I'm so glad you enjoyed my Harley Quinn reference!

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There is a melancholic tone in this write...some very good imagery...like the rain splashing car.when we look back on some of our good time spent, we get so much to ponder! I like the poem...nicely done There is a melancholic tone in this write...some very good imagery...like the rain splashing car.when we look back on some of our good time spent, we get so much to ponder! I like the poem...nicely done Rating /100 1 of 1 people found this review constructive. Vertigo Cat1111 2 Years Ago Thank you so much! I appreciate it so, so much. (:

Reviews

[Betty Hermelee]

There is so much in this poem; truly sad and some happy memories; when you age and know it is lonely and fearful about what is to come, so you look back upon the good and the bad and try to remember minute details about your lives together and separately. "My back melts, my hands tingle";"They say it drives you crazy getting old";"They'll never be another Italian ice"; I love so many line; it's back and forth between younger days of love and the fear of old age; it's almost like stream of consciousness; so well written in fleeting thoughts as it should be.
Best to you,
B
PS I'm going to read your chapter!

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Ah, thank you! That is exactly what I was going for, and I'm so happy you noticed. Thank you, so, so much as always!

[Betty Hermelee]

Of course, and you’re very welcome😊

[Coyote Poetry]

Outstanding words and thoughts shared my dear friend.
"I had to count some tile
I had to rip the fear right out
Stomp it next to cigars on the ground
It's heavenly to remember our nightmares"
I did like the above lines. I been in this place a few times. Thank you for sharing the amazing and powerful words.
Coyote

[LostSage]

wow...reading this is like being on a acid trip man....beautiful 😎

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Haha, thank you so much! I appreciate the review endlessly.

[Cyprian Van Dyke]

Hmm, I think that was my that me that mentioned Lorde's song RIBs. It really is a good song. I also like the mention of Harley Quinn. Now on to your poem:

You have a lot of good lines that evoke so much emotion, like "my back melts", "Up against the world and winning" and "it's heavenly to remember our nightmares". Every line of this had me hooked into its sentiment and flow that I didn't want to end. I looked at your poem being about RIBs mostly. Scary growing old, life (things mentioned) pass by so fast type of meaning. I really enjoyed your poem as well as your note. tyfs

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so, so much! And yes, I believe it was you that mentioned it! Thank you again, your reviews are always so kind and uplifting- and I'm so glad you enjoyed my Harley Quinn reference!

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There is a melancholic tone in this write...some very good imagery...like the rain splashing car.when we look back on some of our good time spent, we get so much to ponder!

I like the poem...nicely done

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I appreciate it so, so much. (: