Free

A Story by Nick Almanza

i wrote this for the first picture on the picture prompts contest

The water feels cold. I can feel it covering my body, slowly evloping me. Taking me downas it swallows me whole. My mind begins to wander, despreate and lonely it wanders to the faces of others. Friends, family, loves. All those who have put me in this water, but the fault remains mine. The world sees me not in anyway. They see me as an outcast. Trying to fit in yet i always feel left out. Society was only one of my problems. My mother, pitiful and weak led me to abnormality. With constant judgement, control, and dissapointment. My father, a drunk who beat, ridiculled, and terrified me to the point of break. Through anger, and rebellion i over came them both, but as people say out of one hole, into another. The world brought me down. Constant judgement from everyone, even those i called my friends. I changed in anyway and was automatically mocked. Societies views are so shameful. Its expectations, so high. Of course the young mind of mine created a belief that there are people out there that accepted anyone no matter looks, actions, or beliefs. No, the world bears to many awfu acts for people to be like that. So much shame. So much on me for not preparing myself for any of this. Now here i am. A sudden loss of feelings, due to antideprresion pills, led me here. All my friends have moved away, no one to talk me out of it. Here i am, lost in these dark waters. Same as the darkness of the world. No hand comes to grab mine, no savior comes to help me. No room for fairytales. I slowly fall into the abyss wondering all thats happened. Now its over, peace shall finally come. My heart slows, my eyes lower. I am free.