I'm My Own Worst Enemy

The worst enemy you can have is yourself.

There's a voice inside my head

That always tells me 

"You're not good enough"

"You'll never be anything"

But I always listen to it because

I am my own worst enemy,

I tell myself I'm no good,

No one will ever talk to me

You're always the underdog

That no one really cares about

I'm my own worst enemy because

When I get a compliment I turn

It into a nasty comment,

Because I don't believe in myself

I cut,

I scream,

I listen to music

To drown out the feeling of hating myself,

I starve,

I overeat,

I crash diet

All to kill the pain racing inside of me

I'm my own worst enemy

I hate myself,

I know I can never love myself

Because I take everything into consideration

I feel like no one likes me...

Maybe because I don't like myself...

I'm trapped inside this prison cell,

With no way to get out

Author's Note

My thoughts on what it would be like if I was my own enemy...

Reviews

[Liza]

i think most of us go through this stage of transition; when we know we want to be something but haven't had the training or belief to be in alignment. women fall into self sabotaging actions with the starvation, overeating and dieting because the media serves the masses on whats beautiful and if we don't fit the color, shape, symmetrics and stance of what they advertise - we start punishing ourselves for not being lovable....but then later we discover that this shell is deeper - and life is still too beautiful and precious to allow ourselves to live from the outside in rather than inside out.

[Ruth]

To be our own worst enemy is self reflective at times...we often like what we do not see...this voices that well love...you are not afraid to voice such issues and I admire that xx

[Stephanie Slayer]

awesome work

[Daytonight]

I too can relate to this poem. It really touched home with me. Thanks for writing it. Keep on penning.

[A Risen Heroine.]

I can relate to this poem very well...
You portrayed it very wel..
Thank you so much for the RR...

~A Fallen Heroine~

[nevermindfan1991]

I have felt like that. I will be honest here, I don't have strong sense of self, my self esteem is pretty low, and I have thought things like this. I have said things like these to myself. When I achieve something I tribute it to luck, not my skill or determination. I put myself down, and usually think I'm worthless or undesirable. I'm still fighting, but I'm glad you wrote this poem about such a topic. I'm really glad this. Another great job!

[Just Cat]

I saw the title of this and IMMEDIATELY knew I was going to like this poem.
And I was wrong... I loved it.
I can relate to this regarding everything you've said.
Great write!

:)