I Dont Just Wanna Talk

I Don't Just Wanna Talk

 

How dare you be so happy

After everything you put us through

In fact I shouldnt say us

You didn't just drag my name into the dirt

You kicked me into the dust

Wrap your fingers around my heart and milked it for all it was worth

Did you ever stop to wonder if I deserve this hurt?

No you didnt, you just get off on causing me pain

You found yourself in my "friends" arm before I'd even boarded my plane

 

Our relationship was always a wounded animal whos life was hanging on only by a string

When I called you that first time were you with him?

Dont you dare lie to me!

You can't see it the damage you did bleeds inside of me

I rememeber my first month at Baobab

When I showed your picture to my new friends

Even they who'd never met you could tell that your love was as a short a weekend

But I said no, shes to special, she would never do that man, she loves me

And everyday it tugs

That I was dumb enough to defend you

I tell everybody how wonderful you are and this is what you do.

Do you have any idea the hoops I had to jump through?

Just keep you happy!

Then as repayment you slap me!

 

If you think you're special enough to cause me to kill myself

Then you better getting ready for a rude awakening

Im slitting your throat, cutting your head off and placing it on my shelf

Please spare me the I love yous and the please donts

You think aplogising is going to save you

Well it wont.

You've taken all you can from me

And now its time for you to foot the bill.

Why wont you hold still?

You were still when you were in his arms

Never wondering how

It would make me feel, so I expect you to hold still now.

Where is he right now?

Why doesnt he stand up?

What? He's not man enough for that now?

I'll fight fair, if he wants we can do the fisty-cups

But no matter what happens

I'm still cutting you up

How could you love him? He wont even stand up for you! Dont you see?

He's not a man, he took you behind my back, and now he's scared to face me.

Maybe if I slit your throat he'll find his courage

Oh well, its a theory, lets see.

 

Bongani Armstrong Mhlangu

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

A poem filled with a lot of anger. The poem told of gain and lost. Cutting throats in a poem. Always can give the reader a surprise. Thank you for sharing the interesting poem.
Coyote

[Gazza]

Very passionate piece, just watch some of those lines. Killing her doesn't solve the problem, but this shows how relationships can cause pain.

[Junert]

How it hurts when one repays you wrongly.

[afra]

wow this was sooooo powerful and strong ......i loved it ...

[Rtrt]

"After everything you put me us through"- Do you mean me and us?
"You found yourself in my "friends" arm before I'd even boarded my plane"-I see how this could turn your mind into a volcano.
I empathize with your anger.

[Dark Tower]

Thank you for pointing that out, can't believe I missed that. Will fix it promptly.

[Lisa Ring]

Very passionate work. Yet scary. I completely understand a figurative slashing, a literal one...well, you get my point. I feel your betrayal and your anger through your conversational voice.

[Dark Tower]

Thank you Lisa. At the time I wrote this, I was less than pleased with a certain woman. But please rest assured, I have physical abused a women. Certainly wouldn't slash one. Besides Im a beat of a neat freak, and the blood would be horribly difficult to get out my clothes.

[Lisa Ring]

Yes. Blood stains. I think you mean "not" or "never" :)

[Dark Tower]

Oh my word. Yes point of correction. I have NEVER abused women. I can only imagine how that must have looked.

[Lisa Ring]

I understood what you meant. In a society of cell phone text messages, one learns to read between the words ;)

[Dark Tower]

That's true, typos are expected every now and then

Im actually reading that message again "beat of a neat freak" need to slow down a little when typing.