4 years

Its been almost 4 years since I last saw your face
4 years since I last saw your smile
4 years since I last heard your voice
4 years since I last saw you roaming around the halls

The day I heard you were sick, I suddenly felt my heart shatter
I literally fell to the ground and sobbed for hours
When I saw you for the last time, you did smile
But I saw what was behind that smile
I saw nothing but sadness, fear, and possibly anger

I saw you at the hospital and you looked so happy
But inside, you were miserable
You were miserable because you know you werent gonna last in this world much longer
You were pretending to be happy so I wouldn't be hurt
But I've been hurting since the day you left the school

The day you left the school, you told me you were gonna fight so you would come back and teach again
And from then on, I was holding onto that
Little did I know that you were only saying that to put my mind at ease
You only said that so I didn't have to worry anymore
Yet you were wrong

January 2010 came around, everything seemed to be okay
But then my grandma called me over and told me the news
You were gone...
I felt my heart shattered once again
I felt my world crumble around me
I felt like I lost my smile once again

I still had those words in my head
Those words that gave me hope
Those words that you said that you were gonna come back and teach again
I was really hoping you would come back
But your never coming back, and I have to learn to accept that

To this day, I'm still suffering
I'm still sad that you are gone
I'm still lost without you
I've tried moving on, yet I can't for some reason
Is it because I feel guilty?
Or is it because I can't accept the fact that your gone?

Whatever the case is
I just wish you were here now
There's so much I wanted to tell you before you left
I miss you to this day
May you rest in peace...Mrs. Olson

Reviews

[stars are far]

:'( that was really hurting ... well it remined me of my aunt that was my sis and my friend at the same time ...But that was since 2006 ...and it was really hurting ...i was too young when i lost her..but now i wish i want to say :
"I just wish you were here now
There's so much I wanted to tell you before you left
I miss you to this day"

Your words gave me a litle tear in my heart .. well done ..
and im sorry for your loss. And i know how much it is hard ...

[Coyote Poetry]

A very sad poem. Good friends who leave us too soon. Leave us with regret. Thank you for sharing the emotional poem and story.
Coyote

[Suditi]

I'm sorry for your loss..
A beautifully written and heart touching poem.

[Laura Storm]

This is heart shattering. I think it hits me hard because I had an english teacher named Mrs.Olson. She was the most inspirational teacher I have had thus far. I don't know what I would have done with out her. Great write. :)

[Heromen Selena]

So sad... She must have been really close to you. My heart goes out to you. Great poem too.

[Stevo The POE-t]

Thanks for sharing it... I enjoyed it... Great read...