Misbegotten Heart

I wake and prowl the house at night

And wander through the gloom,

The only light that streams are beams

Of silver from the Moon,

While every room is silent

And the passageways are dark,

There’s just one sound, the beating of

My misbegotten heart.

 

But no-one else is stirring

And the atmosphere is thick,

With dreams and ancient memories

From some old sailing ship,

They rise up from the midden of

A thousand journeys sailed,

That came to grief on some dread reef

As each one said, ‘You failed!’

 

And long-lost faces turn away

Before they’ll meet my stare,

I try to capture them again

And say, ‘I know you’re there!’

They shake their heads in silence and

Then drift into the night,

‘I know that I was wrong,’ I call,

They whisper back: ‘You’re right!’

 

So on then through the early hours

My vigil seeks the past,

Re-visiting each love I lost

As if it were the last,

And tears stream like some sad dream

Repeating: ‘Well, you know

Just why I turned away from you,

I really had to go.’

 

The years have mounted up, and now

Lie on me like a tomb,

Reflected in the silence of

This darkened, empty room,

And just as dawn is breaking I

Cry out, ‘I cared, you know!’

My voice, it echoes in the gloom,

‘Why do you hate me so?’

 

David Lewis Paget

Reviews

[Harmony Babin]

This touches me very deeply. I think we can just about all relate to this and/or be inspired. Great work, once again. I really try to make a review for your writing everytime I read something from you, but they're all just so astounding and leave me speechless. You truly have a great insight on life and other things as well and see meanings to many things. I love reading all of your writing, I am truly hooked and a fan, haha (:

[Jane Winters Rogers]

I want to reach out to this poor misunderstood lovely man....great poem

[TPK Stories]

What frightfully wonderful tale! I love stories like this?

[Stevo The POE-t]

Thanks for sharing it... I enjoyed it... Great read...

[roarke]

A different voice here. In the wee hours many things revisit and confound. It's a time, a world, only the stoutest face full on.

[Valentine]

Wow David, You really know how to hit the heart when it is down. This one hit me differently perhaps because of what I have been through these past few months. Terrific write as always. Loved it..Valentine

[Marie]

I have a great deal to regred myself, but I try hard to put the past behind me. I keep a tight lid on my memories, otherwise I'd drown in sorrow.

[Lena M. P.]

David that was insightful. We all walk the floors at night with regrets, ghosts from our pasts who we hurt, let down, and we find sadness that we can't go back and beg forgiveness. Because of that we tend to be harder on ourselves than others are of us. Very well written, heartbreaking and heartfelt with sadness and regrets.

[Bob Sherunkle]

Mr Paget,that was fantastic,in the true sense.Really built an image,very quickly.I really wish I could write something longer than the cr*p I come out with!