Heartbreak headache

when your heartbreaks it all seems to hurt

Hugging myself deep inside

Trying to hold in the hurt I’ll have to hide

Not wanting you to see how it makes me want to cry.

How did it get here? How did we get to this?

What could I have changed? What did I miss?

Did you really let me know how you felt, or did you just play me?

These tears of mine, they’re yours. It’s complicated you see,

I love you and want to make this right, but I haven’t done anything wrong.

I feel angry and betrayed, the emotional wounds you caused, must have been there all along

Stop! Don’t close your eyes to this, see the stinging tears in my eyes

Do you even feel guilty for putting them there? No? I’m not surprised.

Not anymore. You looked at me like I had committed some crimes

and then told me you’d still love me for all time.

 I’m sick and tired of all the contradictions.

 the sound of confusion deafens and I wonder if you even listened to me or was the person I though you were just pure fiction?

I don’t want to hear all you false reasons.

Just let me know when my heart’s not in season

And I’ll think about giving you another chance to explain.

Don’t forget though I want the truth don’t just feign

 forgiveness to make it all alright, those types of lies drive me insane,

You are really giving me an heartache migraine.

Keep everyone else out of this fight, it’s between you and me, it’s yours and mine

Don’t try and pretend that we’re both fine,

You want me to? Well, I decline

Two hearts got hurt this time,

Once you were my lifeline,

Now you’re as deadly to me as strychnine.

What can we do now?

Can you tell how we fix this, can you tell me how?

Is there some sort of relationship medication we can try,

 Or should I keep asking you why?

Why are we arguing? Why are you so mad?

Why didn’t you just tell me? Why can’t you see I’m sad?

I’m mourning the past while it’s still the present,

 You have destroyed me with your judgment,

 You want to know why?

 Because I was dumb and let you in,

I trusted you and you betrayed me and tried to fix it with a grin,

Sorry but that won’t cut with me so I’ll sit here and sob until you finally see.  

 

Reviews

[Jerbear The Great]

Wow. An absolutely amazing poem. All the confusion of heartache thrown onto paper and yet you still took the time to style it and even let it rhyme. Absolutely astonishing. I have personally been in your position, and understanding exactly what it took for you to put this down is mind blowing. I don't know how long it might have taken you to write it, but regardless, putting so much care into a poem that screams your pain shows a personal strength that I have yet to see outside of myself, perhaps I just need to read more poetry like yours. You are an amazing poet and quite obviously an amazing person. You obviously don't need whomever it was that caused you this pain. Amazing Poem. Keep up the good work.

[Alicia Nicole]

"I'm mourning the past past while it's still the present." That has to be my favorite line out of the entire poem. Well written. Good job.

[Devilish_Light]

The feelings are strong. I understand the pain here. I understand the hurt and confusion im in it right now. Good Job!

[Cassie-Tastrophy]

That was amazing. Keep it up :)

[SM Davis]

Nice display of emotion for the character whose heart is broken. I feel the rhyme is a bit forced, perhaps may have been more powerful in prose? Just my opinion. The emotion and imagery here is very nice.

[Sweet_pale_cacophony]

There is so much angst and so much pain...it is like the rushing out of a heavy stream of emotions which had been closed shut in a jar for very very long...i am glad you are letting out....love is like this complex and too many emotions together so much so that you do not know what to do with them.

[Fanciful Goddess]

Amazing! Amazing words.

[Sound]

Sometime the love just fades away. No why? when? what? about it. Just goes. Poof.

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its just wonderful... the pain..the feeling of betrayal... each word aptly displays the required emotion perfectly.. not a word useless...

the emotion in all.. is something i really relate to.. its more than hatred...for it has love as its foundation... the guilt is double.. for loving someone who actually did'nt exist..and then for hating someone you loved more than life... beautifully described in "Once you were my lifeline,

Now you're as deadly to me as strychnine."

the pain deepens as the person.. blames you for things you never did..and whats worse is that we actually give into his/her hollow reasonings and hold our own selves responsible... believing each lie... veiling each bruise with love...

Hugging myself deep inside

Trying to hold in the hurt I'll have to hide
again beautiful...

the confusion..the dilemma ..is so evident... for you begin with holding those tears.. you're sure you don't want him to see them.. but then you want him to know that he's hurt u.. you know u'v done nothing wrong.. but still some part of you believes he cannot be wrong...

so human.. yet so divine..love is something we can never understand..
and hurt... is something we fear..we do decipher...

[Adela Muresan]

This is a very good sad poem, and the iamge you chose for it is great but...the ending makes the writer seem pathetic, even if there's love involved...maybe you would like to change it to ,,But I know you don't chare ,, or somethin' like that.

A.M.

[BlessedLove]

Beautiful peom...felt the emotion...loved it!