Perfectly Imperfect

Every time I'm left alone with my thoughts
I lose the sense of reality and hope
my mind races a thousand miles
leaving me in silence, and voiceless.

I can't stand facing my own reflection
all I can see is my insecurities

fear and anger beats me down
my demons kills my soul,
all I can feel is hate towards them.

Perfectionism slowly kills who I am,
stealing my morals and virtues,

blinding me from the truth
making me feel so small and insignificant,

Searching for a way out of this mindset,
unworthy thoughts runs through my mind

I ask myself, are you good enough?
are you good as you are?

Can you see me?
can you hear me?

My perfectionism is just a flaw
I know if I keep listening to its voice
it only will break and shutter me,

I need you to hold me when I fall
because I know I can't do it alone.

For years, I try to face my own wars 
but now I understand this will lead me

into self-destruction.

One more time help me open my eyes
help me to understand the truth
behind these invasive thoughts,
help me break free from this insanity.

I need to unchain myself from this hell,
so I can find acceptance of my imperfections,

I want to believe I can do anything,
even if my fear of failing takes over
I will face my insecurities,

so I can live free from my own judgment
and be my beautiful imperfect self. 

Reviews

[Relic]

Those demons you speak of have and are making their rounds everyday. I used to fight them, but found that letting them slip through my fingers and not taking them so seriously took a lot off my shoulders. Sometimes you just have to see a funnier/lighter side of life. Either that or remain tense asa board and get nowhere.

Just my two cents.

[Mika =^-^=]

I know. I've learned that with time. I've notice my demons,are all due to my past traumas I had as a child. But I feel, sometimes they need some love, and I give it to them. But I found ways to soothe them away. Now I'm more at peace :)

[Relic]

Glad to hear that. I've had some bad stuff too. That's probably where it starts for most people.

[Mika =^-^=]

yes :) but thank you for commenting

[Relic]

You're welcome. :D

[emipoemi]

Your poetry is raw, soulful, and doesn't go too personal that it shuts the readers out from relating to it 100% Far from it, it allows for them to immerse themselves in the lines and see the universality of the message; that this is not only about the author or whatever, but that it could happen to anyone. But you still have the occasional mistake in spelling and musicality, and in this case, I think the craft of your lines (what should be said, what doesn't need to be there, what is necessary to convey the message) - that needs some tweaking. This is not to say that your poetry is bad - far freaking from it - I'm saying you can make it perfectly brilliant if you can get a handle on the craft of it all.

[Mika =^-^=]

Thank you for your constructive criticism, I appreciate it.

[emipoemi]

my pleasure