Skeleton's Don't Make Good Conversations When They Come Crawling Out of The Close after 30 Years

Skeleton's Don't Make Good Conversations When They Come Crawling Out of The Close after 30 Years

A Chapter by Devin Mitchell Durbin

Open up your eyes.
Open up your heart, 
Maybe you can see
What you feel in the dark.
In the back of your closet
The skeletons you keep
The ones that you know
Just want to speak.
They want to scream
And you won’t listen,
But you know
What they’d say
If they ever would 
Get to see the light of day.
So tell the whole world
How you feel on the inside
How easily you anger,
Over practically nothing
And fret about things
Out of your control.
Constantly freaking out
Constantly wigging. No,
It doesn’t have to be that way,
But you keep making that mistake
Of riding on highs, 
And flowing through lows.
Ignoring the people
Who care the most.
You know that you do it
Or why would you be here
Writing for everyone to hear.
To see where you’re at,
And how disappointed in you
That you are;
You know that you are afraid of the dark.
Though no matter what you do,
You can’t convince you
To do what you know
Needs to be done.
Yet you continue to shut yourself off
And procrastinate
When you know 
That you need to exterminate
All the things in your life
That are holding you back
From becoming a better man
The man that you’ve wanted to be,
Before you succumbed to peer pressure
And to your depression,
To your dysphoria and manic obsessions.
You don’t know who you are,
But know who you want to be;
But you can’t let go of these images
Of who you know that you should be
Know who you could be,
But you don’t want to be, a slave
But you already are.


© 2015 Devin Mitchell Durbin


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Devin Mitchell Durbin
Devin Mitchell Durbin

St. Charles, MO



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