Years

My life in a nutshell and onward

Years

For a many of years

I felt myself always wanting to be in tears

I kept feeling as if something was missing

Like there was a void insisting

Always sitting in thought trying to figure why I have so much fight

Seeking ways to make it into something useful so my words didn’t bite

So much of this pain I felt inside

Just wanting someone to be there by my side

Not even to go through the pain with me

Maybe someone to guide me to the tee

I had the guidance

My pride was just too advance

Didn’t much like following others

I watch my family have the worst of times and the best of times

The worst of times always had the biggest impact

 So when the best of times happened it was to make sure we stayed intact

My parents are the only stable relationship I know of

I’ve seen so many women in my family be without a man to take care of their child

And some would say that is mild

Compared to other women’s situations anyway
So I promised myself to not be just a baby mama

That void I felt time after time has almost diminished

But that’s also because I haven’t finished

Living life to the extent of all it can be

I have so much ahead of me

So many changes I have made to be where I am

To feel ok with whom I am

And some talk behind my back

The ones who shouldn’t, but have because they were set back

Judging the choices I have made

Quite frankly I’ve grown to let it in and release

It’s like breathing, which it’s come to what I expect

And I don’t think that’s what should connect

Loved ones, blood or no blood

But those are the thoughts that flood

The contents of my mind

Remember when I said I wondered why I had so much fight

I’ve figured it out, life is filled with judgment, and I haven’t had it light

I was being prepared for these very moments here

And I continue to face them head on because there’s no way I give in here

Author's Note

Honest comments, please and thank you

Reviews

[Malcolmveli]

I really enjoyed this one. There is just a sense of realness here. I feel like you are talking directly to me about your pain, your life, and your experiences. Even tho the tone is mellow (or at least that's the way I've interpreted it ) there is a subtle boldness in the thought of someone communicated their vulnerabilities to such a wide audience. On a side note that font is hard to read lol. I know its pretty and all but damn its not easy on the eyes lol. That would be my on critique: the font lol

[Dominique Lambright]

Thank you. I really went all out in this one. It was originally going to be a love poem but I don't know lol the words just starting forming into my inner pains and frustrations that I usually keep to myself so I went with it :). And ya the font is pretty but sorry bout your eyes haha. I wouldn't say mellow is what I was going for but somewhat like that because I was accepting everything so that I could move on and not be thinking about the things I hold in all the time towards family friends and situations that cannot be changed. Can't hold onto some things forever. It hinders future progression.

[Malcolmveli]

lol Yes it does. Letting that weight go always encourages forward progression

[Dominique Lambright]

And I have big plans for my future and nothings going to hold me back lol :)

[Malcolmveli]

Thats the mind set you have to have. I hope writing is somewhere in that bright future of yours :)read moreThats the mind set you have to have. I hope writing is somewhere in that bright future of yours :)

[Dominique Lambright]

Oh it will definitely be. God gave me two talents I know of for sure. Running and writing and I can't run no more because of ankle problems but I have loved writing since I was little and must passion hasn't changed yet. I lover being able to make someone smile or be inspired by what I write :)

[Dominique Lambright]

My passion* not must lol

[Malcolmveli]

I'm glad to hear that. I hope you find away to run aswell. One of my friends who is like my little brother runs track I've been watching him run track season. You can run again as well.

[Malcolmveli]

Just look at it this way you kinda have writers block for
your ankle

[Dominique Lambright]

Lol interesting way to put it

[Dominique Lambright]

And I definitely won't be able to without my ankles collapsing lol but thanks for the positivity. I can run for a little while but not for long periods of time or they start flaring up

[Malcolmveli]

Sorry to hear that I Still wish U the best . Not to be insistent but I honestly believe there is something out there to fix that. I would try looking at all alternative, herbal remedies, anti-inflammatory, etc. And of course prayer, spirituality or wherever your heart guides U. But I do believe there is a remedy .

[Dominique Lambright]

Well thank you very much. It is appreciated. You're a very nice person. :)

[Malcolmveli]

Thank U

[Malcolmveli]

Likewise :-)

[Dominique Lambright]

:)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

a couple spots could be addressed " I watched my family..."

"to feel okay with who i am"

in poetry better to write out all words rather than using the abbreviations.--

regardless of some slight errors...a really moving poem.

[Dominique Lambright]

Thank you for telling me. And for the second one I think word changed the "who" to "whom" and I just left it...

[jacob erin-cilberto]

yes, Word is incorrect on that one...can't trust Word all the time...

really enjoy your work...

jacob

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i wonder why the worst of times always have the biggest impact...

and we can never get rid of the scars...no matter how much the times reverse themselves to good.

jacob

[Dominique Lambright]

Yea I have come to realize that you have to get through the bad before the good and unfortunately our world has turned into a lot downfall and sometimes it is hard to reach the top again