Sentenced to Life in my Body

This is about struggling inside oneself.

I'm being punished for something, maybe it was another life, I don't know.

All I know is that this life of mine has not been good. It feels like a bad dream, but every morning when I awake, it continues.

I feel like a prisoner in my own body, sentenced to life. Am I going crazy? Or is it a dream? I don't think so.

I don't hear voices except my own. I fight with myself and put myself down. I cry because I don't like who I am.

I want to be normal and happy like most people are, but I don't have much to be happy about. Well, I do have things to be happy about, but the the bad things take over me. I can't think of anything happy.

I'm stuck in this prison and I don't know why, so I just sit and wait to die.
THE END!

Author's Note

This is fiction!

Reviews

[Verdant Cynic]

That's sad, but such a human and common struggle. We chase the idea of normal and happy. We see smiling people--beautiful couples who are laughing and smiling, under the perfect rays of sunshine, walking in a perfectly choreographed tune. And then, we sit in our misery, wondering why our life can't be like that. It's an image sold to us to keep us perpetually miserable. Perpetually open. Open to what it is they're selling.

Thanks for sharing.

[Donna]

You are so right! Thank you so much.

[katsmeow]

“I do have things to be happy about, but the the bad things take over me. I can't think of anything happy.”
Anyone who has battled depression knows this feeling all too well. We have all the tools for happiness at our fingertips but can never grasp hold of it.
This is a very powerful write.

[Donna]

Thank you katsmeow. I appreciate you taking the time to read this.

[Coyote Poetry]

I do believe in re-incarnation. In dreams, I see old wars. I joined at seventeen and I learn later. All the men in my family present and past knew war. I have bad luck too. Maybe I am paying for old sins??
"I'm stuck in this prison and I don't know why, so I just sit and wait to die.
THE END! "
I like the above lines. This would poem could create along and entertaining conversation. Thank you dear Donna for sharing the amazing poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

[Donna]

I really appreciate your reviews, thanks so much.

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome dear Donna.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

it is very sad when death seems the only way out from a troubled existence---when we reach that bottom of the abyss and there is no way out.
so well expressed here.
j.

[Donna]

Thanx so much Jacob. 😊

[Chris Shaw]

Your lines speak to me of someone stuck in a rut with negativity. Negativity is the friend of no one. Too much of it can completely distort your outlook on life and make you become a prisoner. Lines that others may well relate to Donna. Thank you.

Chris

[Donna]

Thank you Chris! I appreciate you reading and reviewing my writing. It means so much to me.