Give Me Peace

A poem about the anniversry of my husband's passing

Deep within my mind

is a thought thats spiraling

I am trying to push it back

somewhere in the depths of hell

back where it belongs

I don't do these dark things very well

But the time is coming closer

to things that I must face

I don't know how to do them

at least not at this pace

My loss is consuming me

twitching in my soul

I don't want to think about it

but it is out of my control

A year ago, I didn't know

what true hurting was about

I was naive and thought

I can ride this out

I never really dreamed

things would turn out as they did

I could see the signs so easily

but closed my eyes and hid

I was being tested

as I had been before

So many times in my life

I had lost track keeping score

But there always was that last reprieve

just behind the door

Not this time there wasn't

This dug into my core

I lost the security of knowing

that safe and lovely feeling

It flew away one night

and sent my heart a reeling

Why did this have to happen

I tried so hard to keep

the one I loved with me

Now I sit and weep

For some higher power

took all this from my hands

I had no say in this decision

no changing of the plans

What's next I keep on thinking

what's beyond that open door

should I venture through it

do I want to know the score

Or do I keep my eyes closed

as I did this time last year

and just hope for something in my heart

besides this dried up tear

 

Reviews

[Jerri]

Wow Elsie....I could feel the pain, loss, & soul wrenching ache. I could not hold back the tear that escaped while I was entrenched in this read. I wish there was something I could say to fill the hole and ease the pain.. words fail me. I wish I could give you a hug.

[alternative_be]

Reading this, makes me feel awfully quiet and teaches me to cherish my loved ones before it is too late...

[ShadowWolf]

This is a beautiful tribute, so moving!

There is nothing I can offer in the way of relief other than say "keep the sweet memories alive."

Peace to you, Wonderful Lady!

[Wildfleour]

This is a very moving and poignant piece. I have much to learn from you...........

[Deborah Leah Krempa]

Wonderfully penned. I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers go out to you. Thank you for sharing. Debileah

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Elsie you have done this so very well. Each word is just right. Your tempo takes one on to the next line with anticipation and a little dread for the pain with which you are filled. You bring us with you. This must be a hurt that never ends. I admire you tremendously.