Paladins Failure

This world which I often reference as my playground,

This life which has always mesmerized me with its many wonders,

These people whom have always given me reason to believe in an altruistic spirit,

Have teamed up with dark forces in attempts to decimate my soul,

Phantom wounds has penetrated my heart,

A creature so sly, so stealthy, so cunning, so malicious, and so deceitful has infiltrated this fragile realm of beliefs,

Beliefs always strong & potent, until such a wound sears through the emotional cognition of ones ideals and morals,

Lines have been crossed, but true testament of my unconditional love towards my fellow man will be my reaction to the aftermath of such a devilish deed,

My mind races, as my heart sinks towards the center of the Earth,

Am I to blame? Has my charisma influenced those I love to adopt the values I cling to dearly?

Could not I bestow upon them tools to repel such heinous attacks,

In this moment I accept responsibility for your pain,

As the Reaper of Pain wields its double edged blade through my flesh, slashing my vital force into ribbons,

The ghoulish fiend stalked through the night hunting you,

Coursing through every fiber of my being is overwhelming despair,

The wounds inflicted on you, the damage done to you,

The failure is mine, not yours, I could have….. I should have….. armed you against this demon,

The Guardian sentinel to steal away injuries that have befallen you,

To protect you from the arrows of hate,

Stand between you and the leviathan of malevolence,

As a servant of peace the only retribution I can offer is,

I will always be there from now until the end of time,

Separating you from all the Spector’s of agony,

This heart shall remain open to you, a safe haven from the evil of the world,

Never again will complacency derail me from over watching you, keeping you safe,

Submit myself, praying, pledging, pleading, for forgiveness in return for my services,

Never again shall a blind eye be the advocate of the torturous villain,

I am humbled by my failure, and vow it to never repeat it. 

Author's Note

Something bad happened to my friend. I place partial blame on myself for not better protecting her. This poem is a internal struggle I am going though, while accepting some responsibility for this event. As always comments and feedback are welcome.

Reviews

[Zero_Edge88]

"Even in its darkest hour, the armors that still gleamed through the twilight began to shine for what eyes were there for people to see but only mine. To know the confines of what has braced me I have learned to take it in and embrace it as it goes through my skin. For tomorrow that armor will be gone and even in my most naked form I will fill the feels of sympathy, unconditional accompaniment and humility in the eye of those who dare to look and judge me. For what the Reaper has taken I learn that I must be the Sower of future as well to remind me that no matter what was taken there is a seed that we call change that will grow as long as it is taken care of. This is not of condition or fealty but of contrition and resolution that I will hold close to my heart."

"For what the fail has brought upon us, there a thousand rises will take its place as it will soar us to different heights."

Deep, very deep and I found it kind of that way with the first two quotes I gave you. Responsibility isn't to be weighed on partially rather it is distributed by the way we are facing the trials that are given to us by life. Thank you for the sharing.

[Electric Scribe]

Thank you very much for reading it and sharing your thoughts. I really enjoyed reading them :) I am glad you liked it, and I have always thought a true testament of a person’s character isn’t to view them when things are good, rather when the walls are closing in. A genuine person will triumph in those occasions, and stick to their guns.

[Zero_Edge88]

You're very welcome. :) I liked it and I saw it in a different way that I had experienced but yes. It is the testament indeed that changes them instead of backing down. :) Have a great day :)

[Broken Wings]

Wow I have goose bumps. The emotions in this are so intense I felt them myself as I was reading. Amazing write. I love the words you used and description of both the 'failure' you feel and your role as the protector. Thanks for sharing it with me.

[Electric Scribe]

Thank you very much for reading this, I was not sure if I should post it or not, but I decdied long ago I want to be an open book. I am glad you enjoyed it.

[Broken Wings]

I'm really glad you did. It is beautifully written. An open book- best way to be and to write

[Nickalas Cannon]

It is very descriptive. Shows so much emotions and is not overpowered to hide the message.

[Electric Scribe]

I am glad you liked it.