Graceless

Each day I live, the pain consumes

What little sanity I have bloomed

Like walking in a cloud of fog

Falling down, sinking into smog

Life just seems grim

I think on a whim

Interest lost in everything I do

But what a life, who really knew?

Depressed to a fault, that’s all I see

Death just seems like the only way for me

A waste of time, I feel I am

But that's its nature, a full mind jam

I try and try to ease the pain

A fallen effort with no gain

Thoughts begin to eat away

Makes me want to end it today

Uncomfortable around others for the way I feel

I pray and wish this all wasn't real

Life just seems more like a prison

Caged, alone, an abomination risen

No one could ever understand

Why I would want my death sooner than planned

It's not something I want for me

But to end my suffering this is what has to be

So I write this all as I fall from grace

Down to this place, some barren waste

I know not how much longer I will last

But all I can do, is pray that this will just pass.

Reviews

[Shy Joe]

I would like to say age and time changes these feelings, but they don't. Experience, learning, and finding yourself does though. An open mind and a willingness to grow are the two most valuable things in life. It took me a lot longer than it should have to learn this.

Stand up for what you believe in. Follow the path you believe in. Life will consolidate right in front of you. A lovely process.

Thanks for sharing.

[Lavi]

For me, in my experience, being trapped in an internal war in your head with emotions constantly betraying you on the negative spectrum can become misleading. Death is taunting and there are so many ways to end it but there's also so much more to living. And for me I didn't realize that until I realized how damn painful dying was, no matter how "painless" it was supposed to be and when your dying its the worse feeling alive. And that's not living. Living is fighting and working to be free of it. It's talking to people and sharing your soul but making sure others give something back to you for that effort. It's being yourself not what you think you should be or what others expect you to be.
Powerful write, intense in emotion, and very very understanding. The structure and the flow of the poem was nicely written. Thanks for sharing this.

[Karen Redburn]

You've explained/exposed depression and suicidal thoughts well in this poem. I have been there, and it does get better, and as a previous commenter wrote, you can work on it with an open mind a willingness to grow. Don't let that fear destroy even little things can help when one is at the lowest. Excellent writing. Cheers!

[Karmee]

Life just seems more like a prison
Caged, alone, an abomination risen

I SO loved these words here, truthful and so well written. much enjoyed

[Wonderland Asylum]

Thank-you so much!

[Coyote Poetry]

The below lines. Are true for the most of us.I know "not how much longer I will last
But all I can do, is pray that this will just pass."
Life can be a bear sometimes. We must move forward and hope for a happy ending. Thank you my friend for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Alao Taiwo]

Life just seems grim
I think on a WHIM
...as i fall from grace
...to this PLACE

as i fall from grace to the "graceshop"...this will just pass

[Asante]

This hit home for me, wow. Especially with the way I've felt, thought, and lived recently. You spoke in raw, honest strokes and you didn't miss a beat in the process. Depression isn't an action- it's a reaction.

Continue to speak about it in such a light, if you choose. You do that very accurately, and I'm sure there are people who may take to what you have to say because of it.

Great job. x