Reverse Myself

Reverse Myself

A Poem by Emo_Catrina

" That's just me "

You’ll hear her say

" I am lesser than beautiful "
I refuse to believe that
I am of worth
What exactly am I?

A courageous soul who is unapologetically herself

Well, the truth is
I look in the mirror to only see
My reflections disappoint
No longer can I say that
My beauty radiates from within

now read from bottom to top

© 2018 Emo_Catrina


Author's Note

Emo_Catrina
I've struggled severely in the past with my confidence, and I often didn't try to 'believe in myself'. Then when I entered middle school, I started to not care about what people said about myself or my body. It didn't matter for me that I was being called a who're, or a bitch, because I know what I was doing, and what was being said about me wasn't true. They didn't know know me, or what I had been through, so I was gonna show it. I slowly gained confidence in myself, and changed my fashion looks to reflect my personality and how I don't care what people thought about me. Even more slowly, I was gaining confidence in my body.
I went from being a damaged young girl that was severely insecure, to a young adult who is an ambassador for brands, and models their clothing.

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We can as human being go from one extreme to the total opposite via sheer determination, willpower and courage to face our own personal demons and self-doubts. Like you have done yourself. And your poem is an articulate, clever, nice done, poem. Expressing the lessons and confidence you have learnt and grow within you.

Posted 1 Year Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.




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Yes!! Love it. Be you, despite whoever, whatever.

Self love always comes first ❤


Posted 1 Week Ago


All I can say is YES. This poem is beautiful, with a little gift at the end. Your words highlight past and a present. The fact that the present is constructed by the past, and that one must live through the past, in order to reach the present. This journey emphasis the struggles of self-love yet emphasizes a need for hope.

This poem marks precisely what I am going through right now. The only difference though is, that I'm a high school student who constantly tells others she is confident in herself, yet doubts every aspect of her body. I want to reach that marvelous sense of "I don't care what others think". Thanks for this!

Posted 12 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

wow. i love it. the lateral inversion. the mirror
i suppose it comes down to what u believe amid the refuse of opinions the society reflects or that 'schizo-affection' portrays.

i also have a mirror...

Posted 1 Year Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

I'm sure some writes from experience or a hidden feeling or a past encounter they regretted... Happy for you that you finally found your confidence. Keep pushing forward, even the shiny gems take time to be polished...

away from that. that piece of work of yours amused me endlessly. I really really enjoyed it.
keep sending me requests

Posted 1 Year Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Wow amazing how you did it from both ends- clever indeed- and yes let them say what they want we know the truth and is they have issues that they reflect on you- your beautiful no matter what they say...wonderful indeed🌹

Posted 1 Year Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

This is clever, little cat. I love the way you can read it top to bottom or bottom to top. And I am very glad to hear that you are doing so well with your self-confidence. I am sure that when you have blossomed fully you will be someone truly spectacular. Keep up the good work!

Posted 1 Year Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

An old saying helped me thru a similar crisis of confidence: "we teach people how to treat us." When we have low self-esteem, we seem to put out a signal that attracts bullies. Sometimes we have to pretend to be confident, even when we don't really believe it at first. Your poem is such an important way to show how this can go in a successful direction, becuz low self-esteem has been common among youth for decades. I've always been a fan of inspirational writing that uses ones own journey as a way of showing, instead of telling, which feels preachy to me. That's why I love the way you share this (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 1 Year Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Love how you have approached this poem. It's clever and well done you for the changes you have made to your life.

Chris

Posted 1 Year Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Very well done, Emo. This piece works in both directions, with the mood and intention changing with the direction. A perfect Ying & Yang,

Good write.

Posted 1 Year Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

I can relate strongly to this when I was young. I wasn't able to look in the mirror at all, I hated what I saw, and because of what was happening at home - well, I didn't care in the worst of ways. There was a lot of misery when it begun and people used to say I was so much like my father, who at the time was like a romodel to me.

I was just a kid who got into trouble a lot and didn't have the best social skills, causing me to react the "wrong" way and say the right things at the worst time. Then, my father suddenly underwent a trial of hardship and I saw the worst of him, how he changed, and with it - I changed. I hated being compared to my father, and although after what happened people didn't say it anymore, but you don't forget that. So, I forced myself to change, to become someone unrecognizable, and when I looked into the mirror and saw my father's eyes in mine, I would change even more. It took years for me to find myself, to became someone I could look in the mirror and call myself, and only then did I gain confidence. Anyone who tries to put me down now, have no power over me, because I knew who I was, what I had been through, and what I was living for.

A powerful message. True confidence isn't something you pretend to have, it is something unyielding and strong. It is self-reflecting and knowing who you are - and glad for it. Despite the past that has shaped us, the way we react to those experiences are what shape us into who we want to be. Because being someone who we are not, being hurt for something that wasn't true, has no power over us when we let the words bounce off of us.

To end this with a quote, "in order to insult me i must first value your opinion..."

Posted 1 Year Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.


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