Fallin' Angel

This life is not going the way i planned i thought maybe at some point it would get easy..wheres that one moment where everything is okay,where i can breath with no hesitation,now its like i cant even breath,i take one step forward and somehow im 3 steps back,soon ill have to be on my own soon all these people wont be here anymore but in the end who do i want to be there?,in the end who will be there?...today i feel so lost i dont know where i am its like im surrounded my hundreds of people but i still feel so alone,not even the one that im suppose to run to, i feel like i cant cus hes got his own demons to fight and he needs someone to help him but i dont help i jus go quiet....why is this so hard we've tried this thing 5 times,5 times! and its still not easy, i mean i know its suppose to be hard but i never knew it was gonna be this hard....im so sick of people,half of them let me down and the other half just dont do anything,there are only a certain few that are there for me and that understand... i know this is all randomly put but its because i feel so many emotions,i have no idea what todays gonna bring or tomorrow but all i do know is i dont know what to do anymore.......