Someday

Just feelings nothing but feelings...

The smile I show isn't real, I make myself laugh so no one sees me cry. I'm afraid to let someone care for me, and I push people away. I want true love, but I'm too scared to look. I try to help, but I always make things worse. No one knows the pain I hide, if they did I'd see pity on their faces, they'd always worry, and I'd never be alone. There's a different person in me for every location, every occasion. I wish someone would break through this wall I have built around me, but I don't think anyone will ever try because I lie and say everythings fine. My life sucks maybe not as bad as others but still bad just the same. I've seen all kinds of horrors I've known all kinds of pain. People think my life is perfect, someday I'll show them how it's not. Maybe someday probably not.